Before I get into this post I want to make sure everyone is onboard about what adderal is. Adderal is an amphetamine prescribed by a doctor to patients with signs of ADHD. It is a stimulant that when used correctly has helped a lot of people. I say that but I don't really believe in using adderal to 'cure' people, I think they just haven't found the right outlet. Reading & writing just isn't for everyone and adderal is a way to force kids into it. Now this is just my opinion and I wouldn't force it on anyone. It's only what i've gathered from growing up in one of the most adderal presribed generations.
I'll get into what I've learned about adderal by abusing it myself. I first found out about it when I was a sophmore in highschool. I was your typical fifteen year old nerd who played to many video games. I had plenty of friends but didn't really care much about hanging out with them. I was more focussed on what level my character in world of warcraft was. Well one day at school I lent my buddy five bucks during our first period. He promised he would bring it back by the end of the day. The last period of the day came and he had no money for me. Instead he gave me a pill. He told me it was an adderal but I didn't know much about it. Being a stupid fifteen year old I took it. Fifty minutes later by the end of the class I complained to him that it did nothing. I guess I was expecting to see rainbows and crap.
It wasn't until I got on the bus to head home that I started to realize what it had done. I started to talk, talk probably to much. I found myself talking to people that i've known for ten years and never spoken a word to. I didn't even want to get off the bus, I was enjoying myself to much. When I got home I didn't know what to do with myself. I started cleaning my room without my mom asking (lol). Once I was done cleaning it, I started to reorganize it. Then once it was reorganized I began to reorganize it again. My mind was racing, I was talking to people on facebook chat i'd never talked to before. By the end of my night my brain felt depleeted, I felt empty. Bassically felt like a shell of myself. I could hardly do anything except lay in bed and think. The next day when I woke up I felt competely normal. The next week on the first day back to school after the weekend I had to face all the people I talked to. I had no desire to talk to any of them and them me. That was the first and last time I'd do adderal...I thought.
It wasn't for about another year when my friend revealed to me he had a script to adderal every month. He hated adderal and would never take it himself. I began buying adderal off him everyday. Six months I bought it off him everyday with my lunch money. Life got good, life got great! I went from being borderline socially awkward to making so many new friends I didn't know what to do with them. I forgot to mention at the start of junior year in highschool I was 220 pounds and by the end I was 160. I had to lie to my parents and say I got a gym membership to make an excuse for my weight loss. My adderal addiction continued all through the rest of high school. I couldn't even get out of bed without popping a few. The amount I was taking started to get to seriously lethal amounts. I was taking upwards of three hundred miligrams a day. (My buddies orginal prescription for the month). I would have to find new connections all the time. It pretty much ended one day when I took a whole bottle of adderals at once and collapsed in my bedroom. After regaining consciousness I pretty much decided I was done. It took a while to get off of it. I got a lot of head aches and stopped talking to my friends. I went from loving life to absolteuly despising it. I entered a horrible depression which I believe never really went away. Not that i'm always depressed but now if I take any type of 'upper' I do not get pumped up. I get into my own head and don't talk to anyone.
Years later my kidneys began to hurt. The adderal had bassically destroyed them. Thousands of dollars later in medical bills i'm finally back to feeling okay. Still to this day and for the rest of my life I have to pee constantly. I can barely drink a glass of water without needing to pee. If I had know how this would have turned out I would have never taken the first one. The only thing I can tell myself is that life goes on. I hope this post reaches a few young minds. I hope they realize that they don't need adhd medication to have a good time in life.