Alone, But Not Unseen. Caelum1infernum

I'm not sure why I keep thinking about all the wrong decisions I made and how I allowed people to disrespect me in the past. I wanted them to be happy at my own expense, which doesn't make sense to me, because normally I don't allow such things to happen. But with certain people, I allowed it. It confuses me because that's not who I am.

What I realize is that I'm not consistent—I change and accommodate differently with different people, and I don't like that about myself. I should have the same boundaries with everyone, no exceptions.

I keep thinking about this over and over again. Maybe it's because I'm alone here in this big land, and only the chickens are my friends. I don't go out anymore because I don't want any of the chickens to die.

Even though I'm alone, I've been getting a lot of attention lately—from people around me and on social media. But it feels like negative attention. I don’t think it’s the right kind, though maybe I need this attention for future benefits.

I just need to stay focused on the goal—no days off.

Anyway, that’s all for today. I just needed to get this out of my head.

I wonder if the people I'm thinking about right now are also thinking about me. Maybe that’s why they keep popping up in my mind. More questions than answers, I guess. But it’s probably not that important.

Might as well shut up, shut down the mind, and get back to work.

See you all again soon.

(picture is an experiment I made with chatgpt asking it to make a t-shirt for me hehe.)

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