Yeah! Another feel good day, coming to my senses! Ha! yes, feel fine. Didn't actually have to go to the city to visit my Ma, taking the whole fam in tomorrow. That is always better, to have a whole family event. I think my life and situation is changing for the good. I feel it. I may have reached the point where event cryptocurrency and steem is allowing me to be more flexible and do more with my life now. The price pump has helped me some. Don't know what could happen but for now will just enjoy it and relax some more. I feel I'm getting stable.
In those overwhelmed, tired and battered mines of the mind marching through the battle, I have worn life well. The psychological gremlins I could never make my own. I know they were outside of me. No kid is born scared. It is a learned behaviour. I was scared that other people were scared. Then later know they need not be. To be not afraid of even fear itself. Well, need that kind of intensity of positivity to take on Hell. Match what is wrong with a corrective right that wrong was right in a certain context yet in another just takes off in flight. The fight or flight response I notice in these human behaviours.
Known the purpose to be heard and usher in understanding of what is already known and understood. Those little reminders being dropped by people in conversation. I pay attention to the body language and mannerisms. There are times where you communicate without the possibility of misunderstanding. Those breakthrough conversations. That is the excitement of connection. Sometimes getting to know someone new, or someone you have known awhile anew by learning something you didn't know about them before.
So yes, these were just internal ramblings of sleepy thoughts before I go to bed. I feel satisfied in being able to capture my mind frame. Takes awhile to get on topic and find focus. I like talking and writing. Juggling language somewhat. If I am able to manage more time nowadays I think I will read more and sharpen and gain interest in what I'm trying to say. I'm feeling more of the free fun mode lately. Will have fun tomorrow with the fam. May watch a movie while out and do a review.
