"If I'm explaining I'm already losing"
I have always been annoyed at most of what I read about art. Not everything but so much of it is total drivel. I can totally understand why so many people dismiss art in a general sense.
They are impressed by things that obviously took a very long time to do and by realistic drawing. They know they can't do it and they can see that. When things started to get weird they balked. Now they were too ignorant and uneducated as to "why" Why does it look like that? Well to me it seemed obvious. One reason was they were sick of the same shit over and over for a couple of thousand years so why not? Another far harder to explain reason that made perfect sense to me is that the creative energy was pouring out and into the world in every area. Music, architecture, sculpture, movies, theater, MATH, science, everywhere. Every person receiving and responding to this energy actualized it in a different way.
Look at Stravinsky, Bunuel, Braque, particle physics, Ahhh fuck it now I'm trying to explain shit while also hating writing and trying to reach people who don't really want it. This is also why college professors GET FUCKING PAID ACTUAL MONEY SO THEY CAN HAVE A PLACE TO FUCKING LIVE AND FOOD TO EAT. I had a teacher who showed multiple areas of life and how all this "crazy new" stuff happened at roughly the same time and across every dimension of human activity. God damn it I'm pissed at this shit reality we are having now. The last 10 years suck so bad I can't even believe I'm doing this. For what??? To earn maybe 50 cents . Imaginary money I will never be able to access...
Pre internet seems like a wonderful dream when we only talked to person or on the phone. No nonstop captioning commenting and endless email writing crap. the weirdest thing is I can't really remember it exactly. I can't remember what I thought about exactly. Maybe it was because I had friends and went out. Went on dates. Maybe smoking pot again would be a good idea. Painting on my lap - lap not laptop - isn't really doable. No studio or any space to work. The magazine stuff is semi doable. Painting with lots of colors and wet media isn't. Everyone hates a complainer. Well that's what I am.
