This is a painting I am working on. It's inspired by this crazy experience I had. Story below! ▼
I recently went to a Reflexology specialist. If you don't know what that means, thefreedictionary.com defines it best as: a system of massage used to relieve tension and treat illness, based on the theory that there are reflex points on the feet, hands, and head linked to every part of the body. Sounds great, right? Needless to say, I was in need of some pampering.
The specialist I saw works "solely" on feet. Lol, get it? "Solely"??? I'll stop.
Her name is Merri. Merri is one of the most vibrant women I know. Her spirit is full of positive gumption. She has been practicing Reflexology on feet for over 20 years and girl, it shows. I didn't know what I was getting into when I went in for an appointment, but I knew shortly after she began that she was at the top level of this skill.
Here's why: It was so much more than Reflexology. Throughout the massage, I saw things that were happening miles away from me and I felt as if I had entered a new dimension. Not a distant one—a dimension that felt very close to this one.
She started by asking me questions about my life and told me that this was going to be a Spiritual practice as well. I didn't really know what she meant, but I was like, "OKAY! My soul probs needs some healing tbh." She also asked physical questions so she knew where I felt sore. I told her it was my hips, butt, and thighs that hurt from swimming laps. I also mentioned recent problems with lymph nodes and my immune system. I, (a fully up-to-date vaccinated human) was diagnosed with Shingles and the Mumps in the past year.
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I WAS pretty sure those diseases were eradicated...Yeah. Spent a lot of time in the hospital. Don't live in a house with black mold, guys. Terrible immune system! (No worries; I left that house.)
Anyway, Merri had me sit in a lazy-boy chair that tilted my head back and lifted my feet up for her to work on. She played soft music and told me I could keep talking or close my eyes. I asked her if there was a pressure point on my feet for my eyes and she said yes. My eyes have been very dry lately. It feels like they just can't lubricate. It's amazing that touching your foot in a certain way can theoretically aid this!!!
So, here's where it gets weird. About 3-4 years ago I had the strange ability to access DMT and "trip on it" from within my own body. If you're not familiar with DMT, thefreedictionary.com defines it as: dimethyltryptamine (DMT). A hallucinogenic substance derived from the plant Prestonia amazonica. Others call it the "spirit molecule." This is a chemical that is released when you die or when you trip by smoking it. It supposedly "connects you with Source/God", answers all inner questions and people have reportedly seen a bright white light while tripping. I won't go too far into the definition but if you want to learn more, there are TONS of websites and videos on it all over the internet.
I believe that when I was heavy into Spirituality in 2015, I was able to "trip" through meditation. The magical visions I experienced sounded exactly like a DMT trip when it was described to me. I saw people and things from the future that have now been proven to be true (which are too personal to mention here.) And I don't mean things that the brain usually worries about and then comes true—like being afraid of falling on stage and having a dream about it. I saw specific faces I was about to meet later on that I hadn't seen before. I even saw people unpredictably die. People who weren't sick. I experienced flying as a large bird through jagged, green mountains and swimming in the ocean as an aquatic mammal. Sometimes I just saw random images that didn't make sense to me. But, for years I haven't been able to open that door back up again. I have tried, failed, and eventually gave up. Until I saw Merri...
I don't know what she did. But somehow, she opened up that door again. You know how it feels like there are two "levels" of closing your eyelids? The first layer closes your eyes but you can still kind of see the light around you. The second layer closes when you're actually falling asleep into REM cycles. Has anyone else experienced the two layers of closing their eyes? Am I just a reptilian? FUCK! Okay I just looked online and apparently humans don't have this but CATS and certain reptiles do. Okay...
Image of 20 year old Claire "DMT-ing" on her parents' porch.
So, there's a "gentle close" and a "heavy close". Since I am apparently a cat...the gentle close feels like I'm shutting my top eyelid. Then when I'm falling into a deeper relaxation, my inner eyelid closes. This is backwards. You're supposed to shut the bottom layer first. So, there is a shift. While the top lids are closed, I open the bottom lid back up again...For some reason, that takes me to another place. It feels sort of like opening your eyes to wake up, but you're completely detached from a body or from physical feelings. YOU are in a new space, but your body is not. You guys pickin' up what I'm puttin' down?
So, Merri's rubbing my feet and I'm tripping balls. I start to see this wolf. It doesn't have color (and there is no way I'll be able to describe that to anyone) but I painted the wolf anyway in pretty neon colors. I used to see this wolf years ago, so it felt comforting to see it again.
I got impatient, asking over and over again what the wolf meant and it started twitching, spinning in circles, wagging its tongue and morphing. So, I asked another question. I was becoming more aware of time, knowing I only had an hour at the appointment, trying to take in as much information as I could while I was in this higher space. Unfortunately the urgent nature of my questioning was taking me out of that world. I was pulsing in and out of reality like an old radio trying to pick up a channel by switching the dial. I was only catching short glimpses of things now.
The weirdest part was when I ended up hovering over my boyfriend who was a few miles away. I saw his figure, but without regular color. The best way I can describe it is like seeing an image of an object's heat.
I saw his body moving over a counter, working with items on the counter, shuffling them around. His head was bobbing up and down like he was rocking out to something. It was like I was floating over a sound proof force field. I was actually there above him but there was no way to touch him or even be in the same physical space. Idk. I can't explain that. I'll try harder once I understand it more myself.
After my appointment, all of my pain was gone. I stepped outside and noticed how crystal clear my vision was. No redness and no dryness. Yes. I quickly texted my boyfriend and asked him what he'd been doing the past hour. His response SHOOK ME TO MY VERY CORE. He said, "I'm just washing dishes at work, listening to some music." Like...EWWWWWW!!!!!! Right? Was I actually in some other dimension watching him? And are there OTHER beings watching us sometimes? And why am I able to do this???
So I told him I was there and that I saw him. (He wasn't even freaked out because that boy has seen like...real ghosts and shit lol.)
So, yeah. That was crazy. I hope I can see Merri again because I have no idea how to make that happen again. I guess I could try it, but I almost feel too scared to do it without her there. At least until I know what I'm doing a little more.
Thanks for reading you guys. I'll be watching you...
LOL I'm kidding. Or am I...?
I'm sorry, I'm awful 😂
Love to you ❤️
-Claire
The Modern Witch