It's the 2nd time in my work career that I filed a leave outside being sick. Birthday leaves are special privileges allowed at my work place which I can take for a day and use only within my birth month. It's only significant because it's rare for me to consider actually using privilege leaves as I don't know how to have fun when there's a lot of stuff left behind to work.
Maybe I'm just a workaholic. No, it's not my birthday today but thank you. Anyway, I began the day sick (which may as well be a sick leave) and decided to walk a few kilometers from my place to a mall and back. I didn't plan how I should spend my day as it was a last minute impulse to file for it and everything went exactly as I expected.
Took out a large sum of money from my bank, get to a mall or do online shopping, spend on something valuable that would make me happy or do something fun. I ended up in the mall and browsed other places to go but didn't end up buying anything great. And I found it more stressful that I didn't get to buy anything except for a few pencils and sharpener for a hobby.
Stuck with a wad of cash in a place that I can't even find the drive to spend on anything. It's either I'm being too pragmatic or just not impulsive enough to do anything fun. Even the food court was just a no go zone given my diet has just been reduced to healthy liquid to semi-solid food (weight loss reasons).
What could have changed my day would have been with someone that likes to spend their money. Where are my sugar babies when I need them? I don't know. I just walked around the mall and thinking about places to go feeling frustrated that nothing I can think of seems more fun than just being a vegetable in my room reading a damn book or two with coffee.
I drew this piece and will continue building on it again some other time. I did make progress on some parts like contemplating what I should be doing in life and prioritizing what I should be doing as a functional adult.
I decided to just deposit the money I thought I'd be spending today to my broker to buy stocks instead. Just recording my thoughts to backtrack what I've been up to for year 2025.
Thanks for your time