For the first time in many months, it's been
over 4 hours since I've woken up and not had a
cigarette.
I wrote a post here last summer as I was
attempting to quit smoking, it went well for
about a week but unfortunately I broke down
and started smoking again. I blamed it on the
stress, the trading and all other sort of
things. Like in Lethal Weapon it felt like "the
wrong week to quit smoking" or something
like that. Of course it was all just excuses
really, but now I'm as determined as ever to
give it another go and take a break from most
things to see this through.
I started smoking when I was 20, we had a
pretty chill class in highschool where only a
couple students out of 30+ smoked so I never
got introduced to it that way. I was one of
the people who didn't understand what it
meant to be addicted to smoking, it felt
ridiculous to believe some people couldn't be
without it. I started my military service and
everyone started telling me that I will start
smoking there because everyone does. The
stress and being outside all the time will get
you to smoke. I brushed it off as I was sure
that wouldn't affect me and for the longest
time it didn't.
I started smoking the last month of my
military service out of boredom as we didn't
have much to do at the end of it. How ironic
is that, looking back now I almost wish I had
started smoking earlier to relieve the stress.
Ever since that last month I continued
smoking and it's gotten to a point where it
feels like it's affecting my health and way of
life. Throughout the 8+ years I've attempted
to quit many times and I recently read that
only 6% of people that attempt quitting on
their first time succeed. So I hope that
percentage is greater now as I can't even
recall the number of attempts.
To be able to ease my quitting I've decided to
replace that addiction with another past
addiction that I had, gaming. At the time
where I could spend countless of hours just
sitting in front of the PC and gaming I never
thought about cigarettes, so I am hoping to
get back into that mindset and being without
smoking for a couple weeks until I feel
confident again that I can stay smokefree.
This will be where I will spend most of my
time in the coming weeks and hoping I can
kick the habit of smoking.
I will be using nicotine gum to not make it
too difficult, it will be more about the
smoking habit at first and then moving away
from the nicotine addiction by mixing it up
with regular gum now and then and at one
point quit nicotine as well.
My hands are somewhat shaking still as I am
writing this and they have became really
warm as have my feet as well.
I will be posting my gaming onto @dtube if
you are interested in seeing an ex-pro player
come back into the game and once I have a
new PC I will look into streaming it on
@dlive . Even if my PC could handle it I
wouldn't feel comfortable streaming right
now as I probably will get easily annoyed at
stuff.
Will also be blogging about it now and then
and I'm hoping that together with the
community I can fight this through and
finally be smoke-free again.
Thanks for reading!