Good Morning! Today looks like it will be a beautiful day. I do not have any plans as of the moment. I was going to go to my grandmothers to get some flowers for her garden and plant them, but I just do not feel like going out today. We are going to try again tomorrow.
I have already gone out and watered my gardens. It is quite nice outside indeed. I plan to enjoy nature today as much as possible today. I did sleep very well last night, if not too much. I went to bed very early, and got up rather late for me. I am going through some things, and sometimes sleep is the best solution.
Today I feel like a solid 6. I have a lot of junk that I am dealing with right now. I am anxious and worried. I am feeling somewhat lost and afraid. I have to truck through. I am going to quit smoking, but it is really difficult. Triggers are hard. Especially when I get triggered every couple of hours. All I can think about is going out and buying more to smoke. I seriously can not afford to be addicted right now. I need to focus on my health.
I am worried since our move has been pushed back by a week. I am afraid that it will fall through all together. I am afraid of moving, and I am afraid of staying. I am just afraid. I do not know how to deal with these emotions sometimes. I know that I need to accept them and feel them, and then know they will pass in time. It is the only way for me to get through these challenges. I have to have faith, and be positive.
Thanks for reading today! I hope everything is going well for you. Have a fantastic day! <3<3<3
