Happy May Day! Today is going to be a great day. I am not sure why, I just feel like today will be great. I am not feeling very inclined to talk at the moment. I am feeling withdrawn. There are a lot of things that I need to do that I have not done. I have plenty of excuses. I need to get it together, but I feel so not together. I am not sure of anything.
I have been praying and it always makes me feel better. I have been starting to feel more and more depressed. It's such a seeping slow feeling. I am sitting here, trying to write. My brain is empty. Perhaps I get a sentence out, but then I do not like it so I erase it. I just want to sleep most of the time. Getting started on something that I enjoy. Harder to start projects. No more spreading fire. It is a change from mania. I am hoping that it will balance and I will be stable.
I will put my mood at a 5 for now. It was overcast yesterday, and it looks like it will be today as well. I hope that I can get some more gardening done. I got some divisions from my sweet sumac bush and my purple sage. I want to get some herbs divided today. I have three types of thyme, some winter savory, and chives that I want to split. I am thinking I will put them all in one container together and have a nice big herb garden to go.
Gotta sign out for now. I will be back for an update later today. <3
UPDATE
Making quadruple chocolate nut brownies. It smells amazing. I played some civ and simcity. I think I might take a bath and shower soon. It is a rather dreary day but I am enjoying it so far. I might write some later, or perhaps read. I haven't played my ps4 in a while. I should do that as well. <3