Good morning! Drinking my coffee and watching the crape myrtle trees white flowers slowly become illuminated with morning light outside my office window. I woke up a bit early today and slept fantastically. I remember having very fun dreams, but I am not able to remember much about any of my dreams. When I was younger I could, but I did practice at it more. It's like a muscle that has to be exercised or it become weak.
Today I feel like a 5. I feel balanced and well. My newest medicated is the most responsible I believe. Zyprexa is helping me fall asleep, stay asleep, and most importantly it helps with my agitation. All of these things are a part of my manic depression. The manic side is what I've been dealing with the past several weeks. Mania is not something I would wish on anyone. It comes with: racing thoughts, an inability to focus, inappropriate agitation, insomnia, poor sleep quality, boundless energy, inappropriate euphoria, grandiose beliefs, increased sex drive, poor judgment, recklessness, increased talking speed and volume, delusions of grandeur, feeling special and powerful, intense imagination, unpredictability. It is not something that is fun, or enjoyable.
I have been feeling creative lately. It is a nice to make things. I appreciate this world and it's beauty. I need to go an water the garden, it will be wonderful. The birds are singing, the flowers are blooming, and today is going to be a fantastic day. Thank you for reading, I love you! Have a day, celebrate!