I am only human and I have my days just like everyone else. I said that I was going to be open and honest and bear my soul on steemit and that is what I'm doing right now. At this very moment I am extremely disappointed in myself. Yesterday marked the first day in over 2 weeks since I started that I didn't post a blog. I went to bed at night feeling like I had given up, like I have failed. It is a feeling that sank down to the pit of my stomach and it made me sick.
I'm always writing in my posts to never give up, to never give in, to always fight for what you want and I've been doing that ever since I started but yesterday for some reason I just could not get myself to post. I wrote an articles which are stored in my documents. All I had to do yesterday was to click submit and I would have had a post but I could not bring myself to do that because I felt defeated.
I am busy with a few things in my life at the present and none of them are working out. I have done all I could do to make sure that I succeed in these things. I have given my time, effort, Blood, guts, sweat and tears to these projects but not even one of them is working out. For this reason I suppose last night I regressed and I had my first doubt in what I was doing. Checking my steemit balances on my posts did not help much either. I understand that it is going to take a while for me to be an influence on his platform and to start earning a decent amount of money for my posts. I have accepted that but at the same time I did not realise that I will be making plus minus 50 Cents on a post at this time, after so much work... this is a bit disheartening… but it shows that I haven't done done enough. There's still too much work to be done and I'll do it.
I want to keep this post as simple as possible. There's a reason why I did not put any pictures and this post because this is my raw emotions, feelings, THOUGHTS that I am experiencing right now and I want nothing to distract from that. This is also one of the shortest posts I've ever posted but this is personal and this is me exposing myself for the entire world to see or to judge if you will...
