As a half blood, many consider me white, meanwhile whites know I am not one of them.
I can't stomach dominant consumer culture and ethics, I cannot opt out of consumerism in a meaningful way, because it's prevalence is such that survival outside of capitalism is in essence a pledge of poverty, which I am pretty ok with, but it is also not enough to walk away from those behaviors while all the rest of you continue to kill us all.
So how do I continue to decry geocide while participating in it? How do I step aside from my white privilege while also not having an option to step aside from it? How do I ask people who are invested in consumerism to care about the future, while knowing they don't even care about the present if it's outside of their immediate two foot comfort zone?
People today are so selfish, and tolerant of what is immoral, so self destructive and uncaring that people are being physically murdered while we sit inside our privilege, people are more concerned with driving, stain removal, body spray and baby wipes than they are with the fact that their consumerism is actually the death of people TODAY, global warming is killing people TODAY, while you run your air conditioner and wipe ypur ass with antibacterial wipes.
I can't ask people to change, I can't ask people to wake up, I can't change people, I can only say my piece, then watch Nero fiddle while Rome burns.