CHAPTER 2
The Psychic Made Me Do It
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The fair was here. Yes, and not just any fair, it’s the psychic fair. You know the one that literally has everything and anything that a person who is into this esoteric world would want? The crystals, pendulums, tarot cards, incense, books, psychic readers, mediums, aura cleansing and Reiki hearings!? I was about to enter heaven. How can so much greatness exist in one place? My life was exploding with happiness. The first thing that caught my eyes is the crystals. All the amazing stones that have healing properties inside. So many to choose from, so many colors, which ones to choose?
They were selling 30 minute sessions with mediums and psychics who could read in to your life. Ya know, at this point in time I believed in the power of psychics, but I viewed it in such a different way than I see it now. I viewed it as, "Oh, they can see the future of my life. They will be able to tell me spot-on what is going to happen." I know now that people have contact with other entities and can see things before they happen, but it's different than just seeing the future. We literally read the energy of what is happening in the person's life. We tune in to everything around us. We sense through vibrations and sounds that are surrounding us that give us answers. And, yes spirits and guides do share things in our ears. I say "We" because I include myself in this category now as a "psychic or a medium." I just usually choose not to claim those words because, in my opinion, society has a very one-sided view about that type of stuff. I learned later in life, (as you will pick up in this book) that we all have access to these other realms, if we choose to tune in to it and you can read another person very easily if you choose to open up to that. My session was set with an elder lady who connects with skull crystals.. Her advertisement said:
"Connect with entities planted in crystal skulls that are not of this world, that have an energy from another realm that can share information that you haven't been listening to."
"How synchronistic!" I thought to myself. I had my skull crystals in my bra(where I keep all my crystals). I like the crystals to be as close to my heart as possible. She guided me to her table where I sat down to see her beautiful black crystal skull just sitting there in the middle, and she began a conversation with me.
"Ah, I see a very old soul you are." As she has a bright smile on her face.
"Awe, thanks, a lot of people tell me that actually."
"It's very easy to pick up on energy as great as yours and how powerful someone is. What's something I can help you with today?" She inquired.
"I want to know if I'm going to be moving away anytime soon, where is my life going in terms of working this job, and obviously my love life. I have a guy in my life but we’re long-distance. Will we be together?"
"My skull is picking up another energy here with us, his name is Hycanthe (Hi-Can-The), do you know who this is?" She asked with a confused face. At this moment my mouth dropped. My skull in my bras name is Hycanthe and I spoke to it all the time about everything in life. I didn’t name it. I guess when I bought it, they would connect with spirits and place the energy of them inside the skull crystal. They then would channel the skull and ask the crystal for the name.
"WHAT! Yes I know who that is, I have him in my bra, he's a crystal. Do you mind if I take him out?"
"Haha, of course you can, I keep some of my crystals in my bra as well. Very amazing that you got paired up with me and you have a skull and I'm basically the Skull Whisperer. I was puzzled at first when I was hearing both entities speak to me, but I get it now."
I pulled out Hycanthe and set him on the table next to her huge skull and now she was giving me information from both skulls!
"Okay, Brie so first of all, you already know what you are going to do in terms of work. You’ve been wanting to quit for the last 6 months. You holding on to this job is keeping you stuck in that old energy of what you don’t want. You're calling in a lot in life and that job is weighing you down." She explained.
She was right. So much stress had been built up inside of me about this job for the longest time. I had never been a 9-5 type girl, let alone a 7-4 type of girl. I just did it because it made my mom happy and because I made great money working on the base.
Back then, I couldn't care less about money. Here's my naiveness showing itself, in the next sentence. I didn’t believe I needed money to live on the planet. I believed the Universe would gift me everything. I had been reading so many books about the spiritual life and how to stop clinging to money and how to live a simple life. I took this literally, thinking I really didn’t need money when in reality I did. We may not need a million or a billion dollars to live a successful life, but money is part of the blueprint of this world and the Universe wants us to have money in this human experience as of right now. Money brings you freedom and if you are not in the world of playing with money to your advantage, there may be potential energy blocks in your body and mind. Thats another story for another time though.
She went on and shared "You're not going to be there much longer anyways, I see you traveling, going on an adventure to California. Really soon, maybe like the next month! You're going to be learning a lot."
In my head, I thought, that sounds awesome, but no way am I going to California that soon. I don’t know one person in California and I can't quit my job that fast! I still would have to give a 2 week notice.…..
The other realization that I didn’t pick up on until later is that my 12-minute affirmations that I wrote out and recorded myself speaking said, "I am traveling to California, I am going to be a free spirit living off the land and having an adventure that I will always remember." Ha! If only I chose to be more specific.
"And to your third question about this guy you speak of. Hycanthe and my skull are sharing that he's a very great guy, you both connect very well and have a very intense attraction for one another. You both will be coming in and out of each others lives for awhile, but it will tend to stay long- distance. I see him on planes flying to different places, and you as well, but it's most likely not to the same place. You both have had many interactions in other lives as well and this life you both are up to different things that don’t involve one another. The thing is though, when you are in the presence of each other, your hands don’t stay off one another."
My thoughts were moving so fast, "Oh great, a guy I really like, but it sounds like its only about sex. I might as well give this up now.” I wonder.
“No, no there's more in store just be patient.” I say back to my mind.
“I don’t understand how a connection like that can pass up on each other."
The funny thing is, it's 2016 now and has been 3 ½ years since him and I met and we still haven't had sex. The talking continues every now and then and it’s challenging for us just to talk because we both feel the connection so deeply. I used to think this guy was my Twin Flame. You know when a soul is split and they are a direct reflection, and the sex is fire and you're having sex that takes you to another dimension? Yeah, I feel that with him just through his writing, so I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like in person. With Twin Flames, a lot of them tend not to be together off the bat or they are living across the country or dating someone already, or they run away from the connection because it's unlike anything they have ever felt. Our connection is through the roof, unlike anything I have felt with someone. But, we are never in the same place.
Him and I met virtually in February of 2013. I had been clearing out my Facebook friends, and deleting people who I didn’t want on my feed anymore. I remember, I was about to delete him, but I didn’t because I stumbled onto his page, and saw he was speaking about how there needs to be a shift in the world. I didn’t even go through his pictures or anything. I just resonated with the status he shared, so I kept him as a “friend." He wrote me a really long message maybe a week later saying something along the lines of, "Hey Brie, I know this may be random, but I really love the posts you have been sharing on Facebook. There's not many people on my feed who speak truth, and I have been doing a lot of research and have no one to talk to about it.. Maybe we can share some insight together, here's a few articles and videos that put me on this path.”
Long story short, we became very close. He was the first person I ever opened up to and physically talked to out loud about my spiritual views. I was very nervous sharing that part of myself with anyone. He lived in Florida for school but was from Massachusetts. We Skyped basically 24/7, and he would even skip some of his college classes so we could talk longer. He was the sweetest guy I had met in my life up to that point. We shared deep thoughts about the world and our perspectives, and it got to this point where we built a physical, spiritual and mental attraction for each other. The intensity of not physically touching him had skyrocketed through our virtual connection. When we finally connected in person, a month or two later when he was on break, we met-up, and like the psychic said, we couldn’t keep our hands off each other. We never had sex for some odd reason. I think I didn't want to the first few times because I had just met him. I definitely should have though, because now he's been coupled-up with someone since literally a month after I had this reading. How funny. And then again, I'm glad we didn’t have sex because I know so much more about that transfer of sexual energy now, that I only let certain people into that space. We will go over that later though.
I zone back in and realize she is still talking and wondering if there is anything else I'd like to know, "Awe, no thank you, I really appreciate you taking the time to share those answers with me,” I said to the psychic.
Our reading was a lot more in-depth but those were the main points. I went home and wrote about my experience with her and I start questioning myself in my journal..
"How am I ever going to get to California? I'm pretty sure I have like $100 to my name. I want to go to California, but I didn’t expect it to be this soon. Am I supposed to quit my job? I've never quit a job before, how do I do this?"
It's as if I believe everything she's saying to a T and going with it, even though it might not be true.
I headed to work the next week, and I was so antsy! We were supposed to be working on lesson plans. Every other teacher was working on theirs, and I was over there like, Forget that! Just like I have never been a 9-5 girl, I have also never been a person who does homework and follows the rules. When it comes to things I want to do, of course I will do the work, but when it comes to someone else telling me what to do -- Nope! I'll just copy my co-worker’s lesson plans when they are done. They always let me do that.
"Brie, are you not going to work on your lesson plans?" Stacy asked.
"Eh, I don’t feel like it right now." As I sat relaxed with my legs up on the edge of the chair.
"Girl, get over here, I'll help you with them." Stacy said.
"Nope, I'm good. Thank you though."
She never really understood my spiritual mindset and would look at me like I was skitzo, so I didn’t really like to give her my attention. We obviously had to get along because we worked together. But, we knew we didn’t really care for each other. Still, we always wished the best for one another.
"Brie, you know our boss is going to get on you about that, if you don’t do them?" She started giving me the rules, like I don’t already know.
I know she was just trying to help me, I think I was just aggravated because I hated lesson plans, and after everything the psychic said about going to California soon, I kinda gave up on it all.
Instead of doing lesson plans, I got up from the couch and went outside to call my friend Skylar.
Skylar has been my best friend since March of 2013. We met on Facebook in a group called EWAO (Earth We Are One). Two other Facebook friends (who we had never met in person) connected us. They both were from London, and Skylar and I were in the States. She lived in New York at the time with her two kids and was 35. I was living in Boston, Massachusetts and was 19.
The coolest thing is, that maybe a month after we met online, she texted me telling me she was going to Harvard University in Boston, to learn about Unschooling her kids, and she wanted to meet me. Heck yes! She was one of the first people from the internet I met in real life.
I remember my mom being sketched out and overprotective saying, "You're going to meet a woman off Facebook, that you don’t even know? Isn't she like 20 years older than you? I need her phone number, where you are going to be, the address and all the details."
Maybe that’s not overprotective and that’s just being a mom, but in my eyes I was kinda like, “just let me do me.”
When we met, we had an incredible connection. She had such a powerful light while talking to me about the school system and how it was corrupt and wondering if people even understood what was going on with the school system and why it doesn’t serve children. I was mind-blown that she was having this conversation with me because I hadn't really spoke to people in person about this.. I thought I just found this stuff in books and talked about it on the internet. We even laid in the grass and looked up at the sky and both noticed the Flower of Life in the sky. The spiral geometric circles that go in and out and continuously keep going. I remember thinking I was the only one who saw that in the sky. The most amazing part of the day was when we walked out of Harvard, we got led to a land space where there was a huge Native American pow wow going on. The people were naked, with face paint and just a feather or fabric to cover their privates. It was so beautiful. We immediately were like "Can we just hug one more time for our initiation of friendship."
So, back to me calling Skylar and not doing my lesson plans. I was outside, on the phone with her, and I began crying.
"Skylar, I don’t know what to do anymore. I want to quit my job and I can't. I don’t even know how to. My boss won't listen to me. Summer Camp for the kids starts next month, and I have already signed up for being a teacher there."
"Brie, everything is going to be okay, when the timing is right you will know to quit your job."
She was kind of like my spiritual mother. She always said such simple things that helped me realize it's all perfect.
I went back inside, still crying and realized that now is the right time. I knocked on my boss’ door and said "Can I speak with you?"
"Of course come on in, why are you crying, what's the matter?” She asked.
"I just don’t know what to do anymore, I feel really bad. I'm not sure if I want to work here anymore."
"Brie, it's okay, you don’t have to cry about that. Did you think you would be a “Before and After” school teacher for your whole life? Of course not, this is just a stepping stone along your path." She expressed.
Everything seemed to be hitting me in such spiritual language now like I had never heard it before. It was all making sense.
"So are you actually saying you want to quit, because if so, I've gotta find another person to hire in your place." She wonders.
I'm still shaking and tearing up as I say, "Yeah, I'm sure this is what I want to do."
"Can you make it two extra weeks till we find another person to replace you?" She asked.
"I can do better than that, I can find the person to take my place too!"
I had my friend John put in his resume for the position, and he got the job!
I left the office feeling so free! I felt a huge weight from my back fly away. This has been the thing I was supposed to do for the longest time, but right now was the perfect time. I had a smirk on my face and was laughing thinking, “Thank god I don’t have to get that flu shot.”
It was June 20th, 2013 and my friend Melanie, who is medical intuitive, psychic healer, was giving me a reading. It was Summer Solstice, one of the most powerful days of the year, and I wanted to receive more guided messages. I met Melanie on an empowering women's group over the phone. We would all come together share our gratitudes, intentions, meditate, pull tarot cards for one another and share our gifts with the world. Skylar actually introduced me to the group and it was the first time I had a sisterhood of women who were just as inspired about my visions and goals as I was. I remember when I first joined these calls, I could feel a major shift happening. They truly believed that anything you want, you can have if you just know it's already yours. They helped me build that confidence inside of myself to know I can have anything. Melanie stuck out to me a lot. Her calm, gentle spirit. She was like a pixie to me. Her energy brought a light to my life that relaxed my being. I resonated with her very much, and I wasn’t sure what it was. I found out as we got to know each other better, we had been in many past lives together.
"Alright Brie, as I give you this reading, I want you to put the phone on speaker, and rest it next to you as you close your eyes and I'll start connecting with you." She shares.
I began to get comfortable on my bed and I had a citrine stone for prosperity and abundance laid on my stomach. I could feel her energy already. She was giving me reiki, a healing practice that channels Universal energy into the person being worked on. I already felt lighter, like something got taken out of my body that was stuck inside me for so long. This process went on for another 10-15 minutes as I laid there, silent with my eyes closed.
"You had a huge piece of black gunk inside of you that was blocking the flow of energy, so I removed that for you. Now I am going to be connecting with your guides and sharing the messages I receive." She continued.
"You are the most psychic of all humans, and this will be your last lifetime of a cycle to be a messenger. You will complete your mission by bringing people together through harmony, balance, peace, justice, something creative in art. You wanted to do this, and your mission is huge. You are guided by strong people who have done this and are there to help you. There is no way that you will not complete your mission. Use your psychic abilities to tap into your guides. Southern California and Northern California are calling your name. Maybe an event to open your abilities up; a conference, maybe a workshop. You can choose where you want to live, but you learn something big and meet people that further educate you. You have a message and are grateful to share it, and people want to hear it. You do not have to worry about people not understanding you. You have the ability to share on a grand scale. Express to yourself what you are thinking and processing even if you trip up.
The Infinity sign is popping up for me right now. Finding your soulmates, joining of two souls, you have soulmates here that are coming together. You have a project and you have so many tools. Each person is going to bring a tool. Everyone comes to the table with necessary tools and you harmonize these tools like an Orchestra. You have been here and done this almost exact thing, but they didn’t allow you to finish. You have doubts because you weren't allowed to finish, but they aren’t valid anymore. You have to train yourself to know they aren’t valid. You might blame someone else because you have worked with these people who may have blocked you from completing your mission in past lives, but now they are here to help you. You may feel like you need to take control because they blocked you before. Calm down and tell yourself "I'm an infinite soul." You hold a lot of fire inside. You are like a dragon. There are two close women who are supporting you. They both travel with you through life and they are teachers. They show the union with the divine. You are tapped into Lemuria and Atlantis - you speak telepathically with the beings. Peel away the layers to find the person inside that still has this power within you. We don’t come into every lifetime knowing everything from the past. Only the things we need to know. You have certain qualities you need to tap into. Practice them and acknowledge them and talk to them. Ask them "what can you show me?"
Your heart has been damaged over and over in many lifetimes. Oppression was shitting on you because you are a messenger. You have died young many times, but you will not in this lifetime. Your heart is infinitely fulfilled — it’s not about money or friendship or career for you. You have a far greater ability than me if you tap into it. The energy is saying you are so damn psychic! Your spleen has undigested food. I’m seeing citrine crystal. Put it under the moon tonight to charge it, but sit with it now above your belly button. Heal your spleen and let go of worry. These issues are tied to your dad or some man in your life. You got into a cycle with it but you need to let it go. It makes digestion sluggish and blocks your psychic ability and the spiritual body. You are a healer and can tap into your body to ask what it needs. This is your contract so you may be able to dream about "Becoming Brie" and incarnating into yourself before you got here. Go back and remember why you chose this life, why you picked your dad and mom, where you live and why you picked your birthday.
You have a spiritual contract with your father but it ends in this lifetime. Your souls love each other but you play character roles in this life so the others will learn lessons. You are holding this contract between your ribs and belly button. On the right side of your body, there is a sense of worry. Emotionally you're okay and spiritually you're okay, but you can neglect your physical body and can live in your head. You should dance and move, love your body and don’t forget that this energy contract is there. Your physical body reacted by not having him there, but he was there at your conception so he is a part of you. But since he is not there to make up the puzzle, there's a feeling that is left in you like a void. Digestion —Let your body be nourished. Once the contract is up, you will have an amazing relationship with your dad again. As above, so below -- you believe in a lot. You must root yourself and ground yourself every day. 711 is coming up or 7 and 11, saying you are the highest psychic you can be. 7 is your spiritual contract with a family member, and 11 is your contract number you came with on this planet. Check in with your aura, you have premonitions.
There will be a huge gathering or meeting of people in California. They have resources there that will blow your mind. People who have been doing this for a long time. You are the harmonizer and people who will not know what to do with their tools will come to you. Talking bothers you because you are an infinite soul and you know what to say but your human body doesn’t know how to say it. You are breaking into this body and limitations are frustrating to you. You must say what you have to say and it might come out completely wrong but you need practice. Your ability is so wonderful. You have to be willing to be wrong because you chose this lifetime to be a healer. Not everyone is at your level. Don’t let ego get in the way. Go with your heart and know anything is a possibility and you can make it happen." Melanie shared.
I've had many readings in my life, but Melanie seemed to be on another level. I had to process everything she shared with me, but I already felt more in tune with my spirit. Very interesting that she and the other psychic both mentioned California. It gave me more confirmation that I would be making my way to the Golden State.
On my last day on the job at The Before and After School (June 28th, 2013), they all surprised me with a poster board that had all the kids’ goodbye messages to me, and my staff members gave me a journal and crystals for farewell. I teared up. It was so beautiful.
I wrote in my journal that night about all the emotions I was feeling from quitting the job and taking my next steps.
It was my last day of work and I was crying because all the kids were giving me hugs and it was like I didn't want to let go of them. I was so happy being around all of them but I knew I had new things in store for me. It shows how much of an impact you make on kids, and as I was leaving my staff members gave me a present. I didn't want to open it in front of them because I thought I'd cry my eyes out. I came home and I heard the little voice in my head say, "go sit outside by the tree and open your gift." So I went outside opened my gift. Everything in it spoke about how I'm a free spirit and, I have the best positive energy and they are so happy our paths crossed and how it's not going to be the same without me, calling me their little tree hugger. They gave me a Summer camp t-shirt since I wasn't going to be there for camp. The back of the shirt has a picture of the the whole Earth on it, and then the outside of the Earth has people around it with the saying "We Are The World." They also gave me a journal to write down how my journey in life goes, and I flipped through the pages and saw that my coworkers all left me a little message inside on their own separate pages. Also, they bought me some beautiful crystal rocks. (end journal entry).
I was overjoyed, crying under this tree because I was going to miss them so much. The love they were giving me was almost overwhelming. I put everything back in the bag, closed my eyes, took a deep breath to soak everything in and a leaf fell off the tree right in front of me. I was receiving messages about everything, and the message I got from the leaf was "When it's time to let go, be free, flow and let go." I got this huge Aha moment like "wow when you really have no attachments to anything but still love everything just the same, life will be so much better flowing with whatever comes to you." And, then I looked at my clock and it was 2:11. All my clocks had messages for me. I went inside and my wall clock said "Live Love Laugh," I had another Aha moment saying, "This life may be ticking away, but Love is forever here. And, I'm not going to live it being boring. I'm always going to shine positivity on the world and other people's lives."
The next day, I began to wonder "What am I doing with my life? Am I actually going to California? I still don’t have enough money to get there, or know anyone there. Am I going to need to get another job?"
Then something hit me! I remembered when I was 16-years-old, my Aunt Jayla wrote me a message on Myspace. Jayla is my father's sister, who I had only met once before when I was 8-years-old at my birthday party. I never had much contact with my father's side or my father for that matter. We have never been much in each other's lives, which really explains Melanie's reading to me a lot more. We have a soul contract with each other to learn valuable lessons, but we are not in one another’s lives. Maybe it's his sister that is supposed to be in my life. This message from Jayla came to mind so deeply. I remember her writing me this long thought- out message that I was so confused about back then. I actually thought she was crazy.
"My beautiful Briana, it is a blessing to find you on here. I have been having very vivid dreams about you the last couple weeks that have led me to messaging you. I have been living in Hawaii the last few months and I am working on a farm. The weather is beautiful and it speaks such lovely language to me. I work with the bees and I sometimes lay my head on the beehives because it is very healing to my energy. I hope a day comes where I get to see you again. I have become the black sheep of the family and found my own way of life. Remember the Universe will always give you what you want if you ask."
Did she just say she rests her head on beehives? Yeah that’s what I thought back when I was 16. Not sure if I even responded back then. But the message came to me so clearly this day that I was like "Wow, she's just like me! She's into the Universe and energy and healing. I've gotta get in contact with her!" So I reached out to my father on Facebook, who I hadn't talked to on there in about 6 months and said, "Hey, this might be a little random, but do you have contact with Jayla or know how I can reach her?"
"He wrote back and said "I'm about to board my plane right now, I can get you the info when I land."
"Okay please don’t forget!" I said.
He got me the info later that night and put us in a 3 way message saying she's not on much, but here's her Facebook.
She replied immediately, and we got to talking in a separate message.
Jayla: Briana, what a pleasure to reconnect with you, where are you these days? I've taken my adventures to California." Jayla shares.
Oh the irony, life never ceases to amaze me.
-Carl Jung
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