I don't wanna talk about how my life and how it has been going through but I am challenge to come out to the open and courageously hare everything,every angle that happened to my life long time ago.
Honestly,I felt so corny doing this since I am not a kind of person who are fond of storytelling.
A LITTLE ABOUT MYSELF
I dont know if this is luck, others may think I am fortunate because I am the only one child of my parent.God knows how much I love my parent so much.They provided me with everything I need eventhough we were poor.There's nothing more I could ask,I felt contented
My mother was a saleslady back then in grocery store in Panabo Davao,Philippines and my father was a driver.My mother told me that we almost lost our lives when she was giving birth..Thank God He allowed both of us to live.My parents really worked hard just to have enough money for our needs
My mother and me when I was 2months old.
My father and me.
WHEN I WAS 6 YEARS OLD
I still remember those days when we owned avwholesale/retail store somewhere in Kapalong Davao del Norte,such business has lead us to live separately.I could not recall the whole story since I was too young that time.The most happening that was haunting me until now was when my mother left me behind under the care of my Auntie Judith.
On that moment I never really understood how things happened.I learned the whole story when I grow older and my mother was already working abroad as a domestic helper.
They told me that our business was losing because of two main reasons.First is that we find it hard to recover due to unpaid debts of our customer and second the business didn't able to run smoothly because of jealousy on the part of my parent's employer who helped them to start a business.
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It was taken in Kapalong Davao when i was in grade one.
When I started my prep school until I finished.I graduated with medal.But when my mother was gone I was mentaly blocked.II never had medal anymore..Nobody taught me my lesson.My Auntie was so busy since she was a working student.
Eventhough my mother was busy she always giving me time for my school and support school activities.
Taken during my fieldtrip and I thought tis was the last picture we had before she left me.
FIRST TIME MY MOTHER LEFT US
As far as I can recall me and my parent were in Davao Domestic Airport that time.My mother and father were crying and being a young little kid I hold the pants of my mother hugging and telling her I want to go with her.I was so emotional that time.I mean I really cried too.I didn't know why she leave.I can picture myself today how I begged her but she refused.I was seven years old that time
CHILDHOOD ADJUSTMENT PERIOD WITHOUT MY MOTHER
From the airport I remember me and my father went straight to my Aunt's house sleep there. I was so sad but I could not express clearly what I really felt during that time.Our own house in Kapalong Davao was taken by the lending agency and everything we owned were gone.And the worst of all w I really missed my mother.
Since then we kept on wandering from Davao to Isulan Sultan Kudarat wherein I studied part of my elementary years.Then my father decided to leave me to my Auntie in Panabo who then brought me to my grandfather's house in Dalisay Village so I could have a good education.was time that my father decided that I will continue my studies in Panabo again. Then my Auntie brough me to my grandfather's house in Dalisay Village so I could have a good education.
But I cried and hugged my Auntie.I told them crying why all of them has to leave me, my mother my father and my Auntie who were taking care of me since birth?Even if I was still young on that time,I was firmed to my decision to stay with aunt or my father.
MY LIFE WITH MY FATHER
So,my father took me with him wherever he worked until one day after one year in Sultan Kudarat ,the employer of my parents called my father to go to Tagluno Toril Davao.They have poultry farm there.
By the way, talking more about my parent's employer,they were a rich and godparent of my parents.My father was working with them since 12yrs old.Until my father got married with my mother in the year 1989.His employer let my mother worked in their establisment and gave my mother a job as a stock controller.
Everyday I was with my parent's work area when I was still an infant before we moved to Kapalong to start those business with the helped of that certain employer.That employer helped my parent but unfortunately when my parents were almost on the top they dragged them down.
NEW LIFE ADJUSTMENT IN TAGLUNO TORIL
My father worked as maintenance and able to learned about electricity.He taught me some basic works and helped him.My mother keep on sending money for me.I knew my mother loves me too eventhough she never come home always. But she was always sending a letter.
We lived our normal life with my father.I decided to stay with him. My mother told me to go to my aunt's house in Panabo but I could not leave my father.I studied in Tagluno until I graduated elementary grade.
My classmate and favorite teacher.
During weekend I visited my lAuntie who was working there in SM Lanang after she graduated her college.I love her because she was the one who take good care of me when I was a new baby born until 7yrs.old.
My Auntie and me.
I thought my mother will come home during my graduation in my elementary but she didn't come.Emptiness overflow but her reason were always the same finding money for our debts in bank and supported her sibling in school too.Even how it pained me but still I understood the situation.My grandparent from Bohol attended my graduation day.
Me my nanay and tatay from Bohol.
I was so happy even my mother was not around but she sent money for my graduation.
MY GRADUATION DAY...
My grandparents brought a picture of my mother abroad
My beautiful mother I could not almost recognized.
Mother in black attire.
MOST PAINFUL MOMENT
I and my father still in good situation even my mother was not around.I enrolled my secondary school in Toril Davao City.Passing the river to the down town,travelling so far everyday.
One day when my 14th birthday was coming my uncle called me that we have go to Cebu for my birthday celebration.I was surprised what he told me. We took a flight Thursday morning and I returned Davao alone after three days.I never expect any surprised.I asked permission to my father that I have to celebrate my birthday in Bohol. My grandmother was a dressmaker in Cebu.
I never thought that my mother was there waiting for me.Because my father was busy he didn't go with me. So I got the chance to come for my grandmother's invitation.Deep inside of me I realise there is something bad regarding the relation of my parent.But I was not asking about it. I did it without any reason.What the matter for me was I could able to have my first flight.Nobody told me that my mother was there.
So when we arrived Cebu,employer and co employee of my grandmother welcomed me.My grandmother was crying. She hugged me tight. She never told me what surprised ahead.Then I saw a lady I never recognise at first sight when she was walking down the stairs.
When she was already three step forward I noticed it was my mother. I cried and hugged her.We both cried and all the people around us were crying too. How many years I never seen my mother. I felt so much happy even my father was not around.I was too young to question what really happened about their relation.
Our picture together.
Actually there was no big birthday party at all.My mother just wanted to meet me without my father's knowledge.We talked about it and still I had no right to discuss the matters between my parent.What i knew they both loved me and mama was working far away from us.
We roamed around Cebu on that time.The following morning I returned to Davao.I enjoyed our little time together with mama.
It was sad to say goodbye again and I asked her that she must come to Davao before going back to Saudi.
I returned Davao flooding .I was absent for one day.My father thought that I was just stranded by the flood because the water in the river was too high.I kept it secret and so very sorry for my father that I met my mother.
Then my mother came to Davao during my Chtistmas party but never met my father.She stayed in Davao City with my sister for a week.After that she came back to Cebu.
WHEN MY FATHER LEARNED MOTHER WAS IN CEBU.
I never told anything about my mother to my father.But one day he told me that he will be going to have vacation.Without my knowledge he went to Cebu.They met and talked about their both life.But my mother never decides to come with him again instead she decided to go back Saudi Arabia.They settled about their relation living in a separated lives.They were talking just about me.What was in my mind my father loves me and my mother loves me too.
My father came home and feeling so lonely.
I never talked nor asked about it.It was Ocober that my mother returned to Saudi again to the same employer.
MY FATHER LAST BIRTHDAY AND CHRISTMAS
December 20, 2004, was his last birthday celebration with me. During Christmas party my father was singing Bohemian Raphsody. It was his last song. Because on the following day he had a severe headache that cause him to die without illness. He died in my arms on our way to the doctor that night. That was the last Christmas we were together. It was so very painful to me. I was too young. My father was only 34 yrs old. I wanted to be with him since my mother was away from me .
My mother came home.I told her whatever misunderstanding they had,it was the right time to respect forgive and forget.How I felt regrets why I didn't asked my mother to forgive my father when he was still alive? But it was too late for my father was no longer here with me.
Until now i never knew what the real story behind and I prefered to move on and accepted everything.What could I say I am thankful that my parents loved me more than what I deserved.I respected both of them.I just realized many things I dont want my own familyl suffer the same situation I suffered most.
STARTING MY LIFE WITHOUT MY PARENT
After the burial of my father,my mother went back again to Saudi.I stayed with my Auntie Judith.She became a teacher.She is my father and a mother.I learned a lot of things from her.
During my high school graduation,she was the one who was standing with me. My mother still had a financial outbalance since she was our bread winner. I was studying in private school that's why my mother didn't able to save money.
During my college day,I was taking Computer technician in Samson Techical College. I finished my studies yet my mother never came. I am a man who love to be alone because I was living my life without many people around me. How I wish to have a sister or a brother but sad to say I had no one and only my Auntie Judith was there for me. She was my spoiler.
She is my second mother. My mother also supported her studies before. Thanks to God she passed the teacher board exam. Until now she never had a baby. She is so happy that I got two daughters that make her feeling good.
Last 2014 my mother bought me a Saudi Visa so we could be together since she is commited to her female employer having a cancer.She can not spend vacation easily everytime she wanted to visit us due to her employer's health issue.
That is one of so many reasons why my mother can not come home until now.
But before the processing for abroad was approved,I met a girl who became my wife and a mother of my two daughters.It was a whirlwind decision to get married last 2015.I got married without my mother.She never attended it.
BEING AWAY FROM MY OWN FAMILY
If how hard to be away from my parent on my younger age,the time I left my family was the worst nightmare I ever had. My visa was finalised after a month my youngest daughter was born.
I had a mixed feelings how hard it was,so many question arises to my mind. As if I couldn't leave my family. I don't wanna let them feel what I felt when my parent was away from me.
But my visa was already finished. I must go...But not so lucky when it comes to work because the establishment was shut down because of the crisis here in Saudi Arabia.Labor laws is really changing with penalty and some other additional charges for the resident I.D.
What i appreciated most was the value of my mothers love,she fullfilled her promise to me that we would be together here in Saudi.Yes I was not so lucky with my first attempt in working abroad but the lesson i picked up when I saw her sacrifices and struggles.There I realized more than a lesson to learned about life.
Me and my mother in her employer"s house
I was so happy that I met my mother and her employer. I stayed with her for a year but I must bid farewell for the sake of better tomorrow for my own family and also for my mother who is growing older now.
Twenty years working abroad is enough.I will look for a job that could able to feed my mother and my family .I want her to be home.I will be having a positive outlook in life after my failure attempt there in Saudi. I said goodbye like the sun set on that day I left my mother crying.
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MY TWO LOVELY CUTE DAUGHTER
They are my reason to move on forward.I don't let my children feel what I felt.I could not blame my mother nor my father because they loved me.But circumstances occurred to their lives.When I see my children I see hope and shine to my life. Please God help me!God will make a way when there's seems no way.
My life
My eldsest daughter ISCIA DEV
MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER OLIVIA DEV
Now I am already with them my wife and chlidren. We will live unless we have love each other for better or worst.
Taken during the time I arrived from Saudi Arabia.They are so happy.The girl I left one month old before and now will be celebrating her first birthday next week.Thanks to my wife who sacrifices a lot to raise our children in that time she just gave birth.
TO MY MOTHER DEAR
Mama,now I left you but one day I will get you back and pay what you deserve.Your sacrifices are enough. One day we will be together again.
Thank you Mama.I know you miss me and I do missing you too.
IF MY MOTHER IS THE STRONGEST WOMAN I EVER KNOW,WHY ME AS A MAN COULD NEVER DO WHAT SHE DID?
For my papa in heaven
Thank you for reading. May God bless us.
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