Starting from here. Where I am now. I think to an extent on a deep level I've been doing my life wrong and always on a low level for looking how things can serve me. I could spend a bunch of time justifying this and explaining it away and making it ok, maybe but at the end of the day...It really doesn't matter what my justification is.
I can alternatively accept what is and move on but I am hoping
is that recognising this will also help me adjust my mindset to how I can help. How can I serve, How can I be part of this thing that I am already part of doing more to serve others and I recognise that this is likely the large part of how I did my witness wrong. Which for the time being is shut down now. I hope that this can be seen as an apology to those who where upset by my actions within that and that my actions moving forward can be seen as recompense.
Kind Regards to this beautiful community and I hope today finds you all well and loved.