Used to read those crypto adventures from you, I'm sad to see you are in a bad place right now.
Not sure I can help, though I've been in almost as bad situation few years back. What helped me was creating healthy habits, plant based diet and fresh juices, good sleep, meditation, affirmations, planning and reflecting on goals regularly. Well known stuff, but it worked for me. I've usually done this as part of a "morning ritual".
Anyway, hope you'll feel better soon. Start small and you'll get there. :)
RE: untitled.