Some days it feels quite tiring, many things are fun and there are also many things that don't wear either for this self or for others.
This is life, sometimes we can run something very smooth and comfortable sometimes it can be very painful and tiring for this self.
Being one in a series that is very solid and makes me not want to know something. This also makes my brain seem to stop thinking as if there will be a barrier in my brain that can cause my thoughts and understanding to be excluded.
But when I began to rethink the past few months I found one mistake in myself and that mistake was very fatal in my opinion, that I began to move away from God a few months back. Maybe this is a strong rebuke to this self so as to further increase faith and devotion to the meha master and also remind me that no matter how strong I try if Allah does not permit it will fail.
Because when I fail I will continue to rise, rise and rise again to get essential success.