Good day steemians! It's me @carlitojoshua coming back to write and to share a lot of wonderful stories here in Steemit. For those who don't know me and for those who forgot about me, I was the 15-year-old blogger in @steemph.cebu community. I was the youngest consistent blogger who posts a lot of travel and photography related stuff and who also posts about God and life. But that was me a long time go.
Today I'm back with a more developed personality, a mature one perhaps. I have new objectives and reasons why I'm here.
- To be me again
My life was pretty absurd for the past months. Maybe because I wasn't able to adapt to the nature of my fellow Senior high students or maybe I just didn't feel any sense of belongingness. Unlike being with the Steemit community back a year ago. Where I feel really comfortable because I know that I fit and I belong to this wonderful platform. I feel pity for myself because there have been a lot of things that I got struggle dealing with. From the past months, I stopped blogging and by that time I felt that I lost a part of myself. My life got boring, I wasted a lot of time, I became incompatible and more.
- To be more productive and consistent
I got to be honest, I really was a dumb-lazy sloth for the past months (regardless of my educational life). I was busy socializing toxic people, spending my time unproductively, wasting the thoughts in my head that I could've written in my blogs. I'm ashamed of myself, I truly am. But I was still responsible though. I passed grade 11 with high honors. With that, I can tell that I am still productive and consistent. It's just I thought bringing back my blogging career would help me practice myself for the future circumstances. To be able to manage time more effectively, to enhance my brainstorming, to polish my English grammar skills and etc.
- To prove that I am worthy
I heard a lot of rumors here in Steemit though that deterred me from blogging. The fact that the @steemph.cebu community is already inactive and my friends and supporters here in Steemit are gone too. Maybe they just stopped blogging due to conflict of schedules or maybe they were just waiting for the money to get high again or maybe they stopped because they have reasons as well. I have no business to ask them though but I surely know that they have their words and I hope they'll come back. But aside from Steemit, I also received a lot of harsh words regarding my photographs, poems, and blogs from different people. It made me feel unworthy. But I was wrong, they were wrong. I have to prove to them that I am worth it, I have to show them that they wronged me, I have to let them know that I am capable of absorbing their words, letting it pass through my ears.
I don't think that I still have readers here and I don't think I'll get a lot of upvotes in my future posts but I believe there are still bloggers out there amateurs or professionals who are seeking for quality contents. I know my past blogs don't really have much quality but I'll make sure my future blogs will have more quality.
I am still in photography blogs and travel blogs though but the future posts will be more aesthetic I could say and more relatable. I also have to change my profile picture and the theme to look more attractive to the readers.
To end this blog, I would like to thank @chuuuckie for giving me the courage to write again and for welcoming me back here in Steemit. Trust me, I am not back here for money but I still hope that the sbd value would fly us to the moon though not now but sooner or later.
