English
Time is quite roling faster than I can imagine. ALTHAF my son is more than 2 years old now. But the time that went so fast was not for me. as a #sailor, within months of leaving my family, time was going very slow like a turtle tak a walk.
August 2014 became my witness to release a singles title on me. After several contracts on the vesel where I work, I met with my a beautiful lady and decided to marry and live together. I pass day by day was perfect, that every day no singgle minute we're not together. Until the times come I had to leave my wife because call of duty had to return to the ship.
A year forward althaf my son was born. I am very fortunate to be at home and had to accompany my wife during given birth. August 28, 2015 is the day when our lovely first son cried hard and saw the whole world. With the birth weigh of 3.2 kg caesar Friday at 10 AM .that moment is obviously I hold my son in my arms on. Our life is definitely are very perfect. That I never feel before.
Growing up and as son of a seaman, almost ain’t getting many figures of a father,that is not his choice. I knew, this is very unfair to him. Especially when I walk from home leaving them to the airport embarkation. This is an very touched moment that ever happened in my life. Wanted to turn and run back to hug them immediately. I don’t want to leave them suddenly. Sometimes, I’ve been think to quit this job, find a new job on shore as long as it can be gathered with them, the most important thing to be able to guard that grown boy. but to look at a brighter future is a necessary sacrifice. I belief at the point of sacrifice. That made me a little amused and excited.
My Wife and our growth boy now live with parents at home for a while in case I leaved them. I am very fortunate, mother in law always faithful to take care of our young boy while my wife also work as nutrisionist in hospital. My wife works schedule hours also requires her duty at night. Again althaf had to stay at home with grandma. Althaf who had trouble sleeping at night was maked her grandma overwhelmed enough and had to accompany him to play toys in the mid night. Other way, when her grandma cooks in the kitchen, that's the moment most he waited for. Althaf likes to make disturb grand while cooking. If the grandmother holds the scoop, althaf must also having too. Accompanying grand cooking while making a big mess. But for gradma that is fine. So the thing is also make a bit amused for her.
There was one an unforgetten situation that maked me struck. my wife told me about althaf one night a few months ago. That night as usual Althaf had trouble sleeping. Though my wife is very sleepy, because of workful activities during the day at hospital. Althaf to whine to play outside bed room because he heard his uncle's voice coming back home from the coffee shop.
"Momy open the door momy open the door" althaf keep whined.
"no althaf come boy go to bed son" althaf still insisted wanted to get out.
Finally my Wife aint have the heart to seing son crying, resigned to unlock the door, suddenly althaf out ran joyfully excited.
Outside his uncle pretending to put on a furious face with the intention of althaf returning to the bed room. However, althaf ain’t afraid of, even laughing with joy instead. Althaf and his uncle were enjoy and fall in playing together. While watching tv althaf sat on his uncle's lap. Slowly on the head swab to the back of body. And suddenly, not take time, althaf is sleeping deeply in his beautiful dream.
That's how my wife told me. Althaf lacked a father figure. Once the life he lived. His father's job as a sailor, whether or not he should grow, even though his father is rarely by his side. Growing up as a strong boy. As he grows, he gets less of a father's touch. Suppose to be I Should be at his side by this golden age to carrying his hand. Teach him good things, because he started follow many things, and that he didn’t get from me. But as a father, I am proud of him. Althaf can be a friend when mommy feel lonely. He is my spirit, an encourager in our family.
At home althaf also had friends playing two siblings a child of my wife's brothers, Rizky and syifa. Luckily again he is not lonely, when they are at home. Because now his brother had started school. So only in the morning althaf always confused will play with who. In order to communicated almost everyday using video calls. That grown young boy only saw me on the screen the first minute of the video took place, then he returned late with his toys. Great son!
son, the strength of your soul really vibrates I feel obviously, even you and your mommy are very strong hold back the wave of life. mainwhile I was only able to hold the waves in the ocean. Now, My absence beside you that is should not be the reason your spirit is weakened buddy. Be a winner among the losers. Later, keep your dreams. Cheer and encourageous up my great son.
indonesia
Waktu sungguh sangat cepat berlalu. Tanpa terasa althaf anak saya sudah berumur 2 tahun lebih. Namum waktu yang berlalu begitu cepat itu tidaklah bagi saya. Hidup sebagai seorang pelaut, dalam waktu berbulan-bulan meninggalkan keluarga, waktu terasa sangat pelan berjalan.
Agustus 2014 menjadi saksi saya melepaskan gelar masa lajang. Setelah beberapa kontrak kerja di kapal saya bertemu dengan calon istri dan memutuskan untuk menikah dan hidup bersama. Hari ke hari saya lalui terasa sempurna, setiap hari tak ada satu menit pun kami tidak bersama. Sampai tiba saya harus meninggalkan istri karena panggilan tugas harus balik ke kapal untuk bekerja.
Setahun kedepan althaf anak saya lahir. Saya sangat beruntung bisa berada di rumah dan bisa menemani istri saat melahirkan. 28 agustus 2015 adalah hari dimana ia pertama menangis keras dan melihat seisi dunia. Dengan kelahiran 3,2 kg cesar Jumat jam 10 pagi dengan selamat saya nyata menggendongnya dalam pelukan tangan saya. Hidup Saya dan istri sangat-sangat terasa sempurna.
Tumbuh dan berkembang sebagai anak seorang pelaut, sering tidak mendapat banyak figur seorang ayah, bukanlah pilihanya. Saya tau, ini sungguh sangat tidak adil baginya. Apalagi ketika saya melangkahkan kaki dari rumah meninggalkan mereka menuju airport. Ini adalah moment yang sangat mengharukan yang pernah terjadi dalam hidup saya. Ingin rasanya berbalik dan berlari kembali memeluk mereka dengan segera. Tiba-tiba tak ingin lagi meninggalkan mereka. Kadang sering saya berfikir untuk meninggalkan pekerjaan ini, mencari pekerjaan di darat asalkan bisa berkumpul bersama mereka, yang terpenting bisa mengawal tumbuh kembang si kecil. tapi untuk menatap masa depan yang lebih cerah memang perlu pengorbanan. Keyakinan saya berkutat pada titik pengorbanan. Itu yang membuat saya sedikit terhibur dan bersemangat.
Istri dan anak sekarang masih tinggal dengan orang tua di rumah. Saya sangat beruntung ibu dari istri saya selalu setia menjaga anak kami ketika istri juga bekerja sebagai nutrisionist di rumah sakit. Jadwal jam bekerja istri juga mengharuskan ia piket pada malam hari. Lagi-lagi althaf harus tinggal di rumah bersama nenek. Althaf yang sukar tidur malam cukup membuat neneknya kewalahan dan harus menemani althaf bermain di tengah malam. Sebaliknya, ketika nenek memasak di dapur, itulah moment yang paling ia tunggu. Althaf suka menggangu nenek yang lagi memasak. Jika nenek pegang centongan, althaf pun harus juga pegang centongan. Menemani nenek memasak sekaligus membuat kacau.
Ada satu kejadian yang membuat saya terhenyak ketika istri menceritakan tentang althaf suatu malam beberapa bulan yang lalu. Malam itu seperti biasa Althaf susah tidur. Padahal istri sangat-sangat mengantuk karena aktifitas kerja di siang hari. Althaf terus merengek minta main di luar kamar karena mendengar suara pamannya yang baru pulang dari warung kopi.
*Momy buka pintu momy buka pintunya" terus althaf merengek seperti itu.
"Sudahlah althaf tidur yuuuk nak" althaf tetap berkeras kepala ingin keluar. Istri yang tidak tega, pasrah membuka kunci pintu, sontak althaf keluar berlari gembira kegirangan.
Di luar pamannya berpura-pura memasang muka marah dengan niat supaya althaf kembali ke kamar. Namun, althaf tidak merasa takut malahan ketawa kegirangan. Althaf dan Pamannya pun larut dalam bermain bersama. Sambil menonton tv althaf duduk di pangkuan pamannya. Pelan-pelan di usap kepala hingga tubuh bagian belakang althaf. Tidak beberapa lama, althaf larut tertidur pulas dalam mimpi indahnya.
Begitulah kira-kira istri saya bercerita.
Althaf kekurangan figur seorang ayah. Begitu adanya hidup yang ia jalani. Pekerjaan ayahnya sebagai seorang pelaut, mau atau tidak, ia harus tumbuh berkembang walau ayahnya jarang di sisinya. Tumbuh sebagai seorang anak yang kuat. Disaat umur tumbuh kembangnya, ia sangat kurang mendapat sentuhan seorang ayah. Harusnya di usianya sekarang saya justru lebih banyak dekat dengannya. Mengajarinya hal-hal yang baik, karena banyak hal yang dia tiru, dan itu tidak dia dapatkan dari saya. Namun sebagai seorang ayah, saya bangga kepadanya. Althaf bisa menjadi teman ketika mommy merasa kesepian. Dialah spirit saya, penyemangat dalam keluarga kami.
Di rumah althaf juga punya teman bermain dua saudara sebaya anak dari abang istri saya, Rizky dan syifa. Untungnya lagi dia tidak kesepian, ketika mereka berada dirumah. Soalnya sekarang saudaranya itu sudah mulai sekolah. Jadi hanya di waktu pagi althaf selalu kebingungan mau main sama siapa. Untuk berkomunikasi kami hampir setiap hari menggunakan video call, althaf hanya melihat saya di layar menit pertama video berlangsung, selanjutnya ia kembali larut dengan mainannya.
nak, kekuatan jiwa mu sungguh bergetar ku rasakan, bahkan engkau dan mommy mu sangat kuat menahan gelombang kehidupan. Sementara aku hanya mampu menahan ombak di lautan. Saat sekarang, Ketiadaan ku di samping kalian janganlah jadikan alasan semangat mu melemah. Jadilah pemenang di antara pecundang-pecundang itu. Kelak, teruslah raih mimpi-mimpi mu. Bersemangatlah anak ku.