Gina and Mon are best of friends since they're a child. They're not neighbour's but they were always going to school together and going home. In their elementary day's they've always go to the sea and doing swimming. Sometimes they went to a park playing with lot of kid's. Both their parents knew them each other well. The family of Gina trusted Mon as her friend and the family of Mon also thinks the same towards Gina. In their younger years they didn't understand what is love means. You know children sometimes teasing you for no reason. Sometimes Gina got mad when some of their classmates teased them that they're lover's. As a young one that kind of word's are unacceptable. Mon just surprised when Gina suddenly pushed her while they're going together at home. When both them in the park and Gina found her classmates approaching she suddenly hid in the flowers. Young and innocent about this kind of word's.
The time was fast and they didn't notice that they're already in highschool. The mind of a young will evolve into teen ager. Slowly they understand what they're feeling. They became aware in society and what's happening around them. At first both of them were confused but because even in highschool they're still bestfriend. They're friendship grow more and it ended up falling in love. Mon was afraid thag their friendship might be ruined if he'll confess about his feelings. Gina started to fall for Mon but because she's a woman. She didn't do anything but to wait. Mon endure the feeling of not telling his bestfriend about his true feelings. Gina endure of waiting that Mon will confess. The strong friendship hinder them to express how they love each other.
Many year's of wanting and waiting, Mon decided to confess his true feelings about his bestfriend. Gina also decided to confess her true feelings even if she's a woman. She's too tired of waiting and it would be fine she thinks because they graduated in highschool. Week after of their graduation they decided to spend their time in the park. They've missed each other because usually they've been always together. But after graduation they're stuck in their house and preparing for entrance examination in college.
When they meet each other in the park as their both eyes meet. They suddenly felt uncomfortable. They're wondering what's happening with them. They shouldn't feel that way because for a long time they always meet and going out. But both of them think's that they must show that they're fine of this. They don't really feel comfortable thinking that they're doing something. Feeling excited and afraid because what if their feelings be rejected with each other. They're sitting in the grass part of the park. While sitting there Mon watch her bestfriend Gina, he feel's motivated.
"I must confess after all."
Mon get the flower's he hides at his back and slowly give it to Gina. Gina seeing that flowers she began to feel anxiety. She doesn't know how to react, no word's coming out even though how so happy she is. Then Mon start talking.
"Gina, I'm afraid to do this because we're friends for long. But day by day of years that passed, there's no time that I haven't dream of us holding hands. I know this seems so arrogant but it just meant how I'm so desperate to have you, not a friend. Forgive me if I couldn't help myself but to love you. I want to think that we're just friends but the more I think of it my heart feels empty and lonely. If flowers are sweet, then I'll be sweeter. If words are shallow then I'm going to full it with myself. It just that if you'll think even more or I'm not perfect for you. I'll make the imperfect to be perfect, that's how I love you. I love you, GINA."
Gina cried because of happiness, she's been waiting for this to happen but now it really is happening. Not too much words to spill because of excitement. Gina hug Mon tightly while crying.
"I LOVE YOU TOO MON AND THANK YOU SO MUCH."
Both of them wanted this moment for long and now it's happening. No more happiness they could imagine knowing that both of them feel's the same.
It's painful knowing that they Mon must go far from their hometown because his course is not offered there. They decided to be fine with it and just think of it as their future to come. Nowadays has gadgets already that can make you see each other. Then one year has passed doing video call. While talking to each other through phone.
"I miss you so much Gina, seeing your face is different from touching it."
**"I miss you too Mon, I want to hug you tightly to feel the warmth of your body.
2 year's come and Mon decided to go home. He surprised Gina of it, he's waiting outside the house of Gina bringing pillow and flowers. Gina is walking outside while Mon turn his back at the house. Gina recognise Mon immediately even though she didn't see his face. Gina covered her eyes while crying. She couldn't believe that Mon is standing in front of her. She wanted to call Mon but action's does immediately rather than words. She run to Mon and hug him while crying silently.
Mon is surprised when someone suddenly hug him. But he already knew that it's Gina. He wanted to face her but Gina cry's so he just smiling while tears falling.
"Please stay that way Mon, I want to catch my breathe first before seeing you."
30 minutes has passed and they decided to go inside Gina's house. Mon give the flowers and one pillow he's bringing.
"Gina I made that pillow because of missing you so much."
Gina feel the pillow and it seems it's not a cotton inside of it. He opens a small hole of it and found out what's inside of it.
"Yeah, lot of papers inside of it with name of you written on it and saying I miss you and i love you gina."
Gina can't believe of the numbers of paper inside. She hug Mon so tightly and kisses him. Mon didn't do anything but starring at Gina's face. But Mon told Gina that he can't stay for a day because he's working right now. While going to school he also working to finance his studies. So the question of Gina was answered about the thin appearance of Mon. Mon look's pale and unhealthy. Mon started walking to ride a ship in going back where he's studying. Both of them crying because they won't see each other again. But Mon cry's the most because he's not sure if he can still see Gina again.
One year has already passed so fast. Montold gina that they won't contact each other for a month maybe or more because he's saving money. He want's to go home and to see her again. He must save money because internet connection cost money and going home will cost a lot of money. Gina understood the situation of Mon and it's not easy to finance his studies alone. Two month's has passed but still Mon didn't contacted her through phone. She began to feel worried but she holds that word's Mon told her. She waited for another month and then she misheard by her neighbour's that Mon is going home. The neighbours of near hear his parents quarreling that Mon should go home and stop his studies first.
The day has come, sister of Mon called Gina in her house to come over in their house. Instead of excitement, Gina feels different. The lonely wind blow's her coldly. She's worried about it but she remains positive and she force herself to smile. Upon arriving at Mon's house she heard some crying. She run towards the house of Mon to het inside immediately but then.....
She see a coffin where the family of Mon crying on it. She don't want to believe, she don't want to see who's inside of it. But she don't know something's like pushing her. She slowly making step's little by little while tears falling. She don't want to confirm it but she don't want to believe it. While tears keep falling, she said to herself.
"Damn it tears why are you falling, stop!!STOP...STOPP.. PLEASE....."*
While talking to herself not to cry she see the face of Mon inside the coffin. No words came out, she wanted to shout but no voice will come out. She sit in the floor while facing the coffin. While she's crying in sobber, only her mind can say a word.
"Why Mon, why is this happening, what will happen to me now. How the day will be perfect if you're not here with me. How will the world to be sweeter if they give me a bitter truth of life."
Hours passed already but Gina still can't believe it. Still, she keep in crying, lying and rolling. It's very painful to her, how they made promises. While she's still crying, she heard something about why it happened.
"Mon double his work to earn more because he's now graduating by next year. He need's more money for the bigger expenses to come."
After hearing that, Gina feel pitty to Mon and crying silently. She understood Mon but still she couldn't accept and said to her mind.
"IS IT WRONG TO ASK FOR FOREVER?"
END
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