My heart beat so fast on the microphone as I was halfway through my show on the radio, not because I was talking on-air, but because my phone rang.
My screen light was traumatizing me; it reminded me that I was a debtor, and my hope of paying back disappointed me. This wasn't my first time loaning, I do and pay back most times before the due date. I didn't know what came over me this time, I guess, virtually the days in June were just rougher and things didn't work out as planned. It became a disgraceful thing as I was emotionally beaten as to being unable to meet up, it felt like I had lost my integrity. I became depressed, my friend that loaned me became disappointed in me, and I was, also in myself, I wasn't going to sit there gloating, I needed a solution.
I called a good number of my friends, colleagues and even acquaintances, they couldn't meet up but they all expressed their goodwill. I decided to call on my friend who has been coming through for me, I felt so reluctant to reach out, I wasn't planning to disturb, but I had no option. He came through again, just like an angel will do, and gave me some money to pay my debt and fuel my already running businesses to thrive. I don't know if I can regain my creditor's trust, but I hope so with deep regrets in my heart.
I do not take any help for granted, the psychological and emotional discomfort I felt taught me once again to be appreciative of peace of mind, tranquility, and joyful moments each time they come. Remaining appreciative, I have found peace within myself and also learned to avoid all forms of bad debt by all means. Bad debts are terrific, simply walk away from them even if it's shoved in your face.
I am thankful for friends who despite their challenges, look out for me and stick to me like family, their joy will know no bounds. Priceless gestures extended to me, I hold so dearly.