“I have seen that in one moment we just stop trying to 'conceive' (con-see-ve) knowing that we are the very conundrum that we are speaking of in human flesh/illusion/. At this juncture something incredible occurs but it must be a genuine 'letting go’ ”
This comes back to the following excerpt from the The Magical Ritual of the Sanctum Regnum, written by Eliphas Levi making this paradox clear, to direct or correct the Creator God ( ourselves as the son of God ) as being viewed as ‘Chaos’ itself, perpetuated by the fear of Chaos-ourselves
( Ancient Gnostics used to call him Ialdabaoth which means “son of chaos”; sometimes he was called Sabaot: “god of exertion” )
"The man who addresses to a Power unknown to him words which he does not fully comprehend, makes a tenebrous prayer to the spirit of darkness; in other words, he invokes the devil. All that happens in the world, that is devoid of justice and right, has the devil for its author. Remember also that he who consults the oracles abdicates in some part his LIBERTY and makes an appeal to fateful forces. The true SAGE directs or corrects the oracle but he never consults it. Saul was already conquered and lost when he consulted the Witch of Endor. In the difficulties of life consult in preference the Sphynx.”
Tip 'HO The Hat to @defango for delving into the challenges of the "Mystery."