Finding most things were cosmically blocked today and nothing seemed to resoate I eventually came upon what did resonate. My goal is clear once more because I can easily tell the inner echo when I come across what is clarity inducing.
It's like I cannot even choose it anymore, resonance is all that counts. And this was resonant! A reminder to where it is I am actually drawn. Only put into words better than I ever could.
It is not so much a thing or certain set of circumstances I want, I instead realized once again that I feel called. Tremendously called. Called to work with the Earth and to be its guardian, to help it replenish its reservoirs of vitality and to become an amplifier for its self-directing currents of energetic flows.
A sort of sorter. A supporter.
I want to be intertwined with it because I know that I can help. Anyone with that call would be able to considering what place nature has been degraded to by "modern" societies. Maybe that's why I feel called.
If all of these recent years were my education, my studies - then I am inching ever closer to graduation. I feel it. Time for higher education. PRACTICAL education. By the cosmic teacher network of life that has long been waiting for me to arrive.
Don't wanna say I dread the final days in class but I have never felt more ready to embark. To get going. To be led by life to the place it knows I can be best of service. To my fellow seekers, to my community, to nature and its neglected ecosystems - wherever that may happen to be concretely.
Meeting people who are better than me in what they do and what they can teach. Wanting to build a network of complementary skillsets among human beings who also graduated because they followed their call; because they will no longer tolerate the kindergarten of a stagnant system.
This video is what it all landed on today, and what summed it up perfectly, in language, in vibe, in energetics. My search has ended after a chaotic and uprooted day. And I give thanks to life. I will rest well, to move forward another step when I come back here to continue to see how this will play itself out.
It's not far now!
