Most people upon seeing my condition would utter the words "I do not want that situation." And who would want this kind of life really? But I came to this point now and it had been a milestone that in a way that I should be proud upon in achieving because it is a rare feat of survival and endurance.
It may be an ugly thing to abandon my quest for a better health and I do not really want to give up because the hope that I see is reachable if some factors around it are met. I know that odds are against me and that makes it pretty hard as things are really complicated in my case.
My plan really is to save some money and let it speak for what I wanted to happen because most people around me doesn't believe that I could finance my medical needs. I can well finance me needs if I could be able to continue my blogging work here and if my steemian friends could also continue to support me then things might go in my favor and a hope for a better future for me can be achieved, I just need more time.
Time me is of the essence and I might not have much of it already. All that I could do is to strive to look for ways that I can seek and apply the best options for me if there were any options left for me to choose from and I know that it comes with a big price if I want another favorable and doable option that I could use, it is just all with complications and comorbidities and it is disturbing psycologically.