I will be going to the bathroom in a few minutes because I want to feel clean and relieved before going to the dialysis. It feels like I am a balloon that is popped after dialysis and of course the feeling of clean inside is really something to consider, the feeling is just like none other.
I had been at dialysis for 17 years now and really it is just a feat in itself, I am a living trophy of success considering that most patients doesn't survive fir more than four years, but me I really do not know why I am still alive and kicking but maybe I have a fate in life that I have to fulfill and then my final capitulation.
It really sucks to survive this long because of the complications. If only I had the tip-top healthcare like some people in the world have then I maybe would not end up with a very hard to manage and expensive to care about medical condition.
I am always praying that someday I would triumph over some of these obstacles in my life, my goals to at least feel like I am normal inside which I know is too far to dream about but this life of ours just is dependent sometimes in the power of money. Money makes you speak, makes you do things beyond your expectations. So I am saving up to use money to make impossible things to happen.
But anyway it is that time again that I will go for my dialysis, another time to endure that blood pressure crash and I am hoping it will go again smoothly so that I would achieve the best possible clean for my blood and also get relived for being waterlogged.
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