Hi, guys!
Today I am not so much writing a publication as I want to complain to you. I was hoping to sign out on the 1st, I was very much in the mood for this. And now I found out that I would not get home until the third or fourth. It upset me very much, it literally hurts me to breathe, it hurts to move. And I am also very worried that here I have lost most of my muscle mass, it is lost very quickly, and here it is absolutely impossible to play sports because of the monstrous cold and the people who surround you because of because you are never alone and because the local gym is essentially a small room with no air.
Yes, I understand that my doctor acts from the best considerations and of course he is absolutely right. But that doesn't make it any easier for me. You know, when you tune in to something very strongly, you are already very much expecting something, and suddenly it turns out that it is being postponed, it can be very unpleasant. And here it is doubly unpleasant, because lately it has been getting colder and colder here, I can hardly survive in this cold. Regardless of how many clothes you are, I have not pulled on myself. It's still cold here, because you don't move, you sit still, and this makes it even colder.
A person definitely needs air and sunlight, and in the last three weeks I have been outside only 2 times. When my mother came to me and when my friends came to me. When my husband came to see me, we had to sit in the car, because I felt very bad, my stomach hurt badly and I could not walk. There are walks for the sick that are taken by a man who is 80 and he is disgusting. He pesters us, and besides, these walks last only half an hour. I don't go to them. I do not want additional stress for my psyche.
I understand that from the outside it now looks as if I am greatly exaggerating. However, this is not so. I really cannot stand even a few more days. Although I have to, I understand it, but I cannot accept it, my head just refuses to believe it. But nevertheless, it's better than getting home only by March. But I also had such chances.
Above in the photographs you can see a funny metal figurine that stands on our ground floor. Cat and fish skeleton.
See you in the next post!
Love, Inber