The title says it all!! This was one of my first songs I made and recorded specifically for Steemit almost 4 months ago! This was back when I didn't have a half-way decent mic and was only using my phone/webcam to record.

I admit that I probably should start doing some more webcam videos, as I know that just posting music and stuff all the time doesn't really help any of you guys get to know me more... And I really want to open that up a bit more. I promise when I get back from Ireland I will be going back to more of my old type of content and will be participating much more in the Steemit zone again!

But yeaaaa... I re-recorded the song completely. Was no way of salvaging it from a phone recording. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy!

Lyrics

I feel like an alien, maybe I ain't from here
I’ve never understood all the strange things done here
feel like I’m a veteran, spirit is the battlefield
gun’s in the holster, can’t express how sad it feels
ain't hidin away, I just have to meditate
I feel I’ve got a lot to say but this oppressive weight
Announcing to the planet, numbers don't exist to me
You’re never alone, you and I we share history
Sometimes I got cold feet, laying under cold sheets
Where our bodies both meet, we can make our own heat
If you listen closely, you can hear the broke beat
Of a heart that’s closing, is there love to show me?
Lay awake no sleep, nobody consoling me
It’s so cold, is there anybody here to clothe me?
Is there even a fuckin single bone to throw me?
But how can there be, if I don’t even know me?

Kill me for my benefit, love. Don’t ever mention it
Irresistible mutagenesis - my depression is
The truth is evident, never get beyond it
Everyday a bomb hits, a military conflict
Special Ops convict, stuck inside a prison cell
Fighting with my inner self, give em hell
Might as well…
The picture painted is vivid, but can I live it?
When it’s time for forgiveness, I pivot, I can’t revisit
Killin all who solicit, this sickness it isn’t witnessed
Like liquid it sits diminished, until you throw yourself in it
Seconds shift into minutes, minutes they turn to days
Gun is aimed, bang bang, I instantly feel no pain
Can’t live with the strain of what my life had remained
Is my family ashamed? How will my death be explained?
momma’s love proclaimed, I’m lowered into my grave
So much I could say… God, just take me away