Hello and Good Day! @hiveopenmic - Week 164 - Theme - "Hopeful" 🙏
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- I love the image in the circle by the way, it’s a nice and simple image with a provocative and meaningful message :) 👍
Today I would like to share with you a very personal story about how hopeful I have had to be in some uncompromising and vulnerable situations in my life.
{Read further to find out} 👇🏼
So this week:
- I have not posted in a little while because the schools were off Friday-Monday so we decided go camping for a few days and nights at a popular Loch (Loch means Lake in Scotland).**
Loch Clunie, Blairgowrie, Scotland.
and took an extra day off to go to the beach!
- We took the 3 children and the dog, and had a great time. Although it was quite busy with paddle boarders, day-campers and “the early morning swimmers” who came at 07:30am for a cold swim - to the island with an abandoned mansion on it - and back. They were a good friendly bunch to get woken up by so early :) haha. Got the coffee on ☕️🙏
Anyway! Moving on with this weeks theme - “Hopeful.” chosen by @jmis101 - thank you for such a promising theme for this weeks concert :) 🙏
- I have many songs that build and encourage hope, and songs that have been written about times and events where I have had to build and encourage my own hope in life, and later down the line turn these events into songs. But this one for me was one of my most hopeful songs! 🙏❤️🔥
“Float Down/Got To Be”
Original Song by @danaidhbee
Firstly let me explain the story in short…
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This is my story about my experience with Hope and remaining Hopeful until the end! whilst sticking to your values and boundaries along the way.
(Song is at the end of the story)
This song was written about a particularly difficult time in my life where shortly before my first child was born my partner and I had some complications that lead to me not being able to attend the birth of my child and also not get to meet her until she was 3 months old.
It was a very scary and anxious time for me. I was seeing someone new, and I didn't really want to. But somehow it was a good distraction from the misery caused.
I subconsciously wrote this song about the birth of my daughter a couple of months before she was due to be born, and later realised it was about this future event coming soon!
It was difficult for me to understand with autism (which I also didn't know at the time), all left me distraught, depressed, anxious, feeling unloved and unwanted..
But I still kept fighting and fighting and pushing for my rights to see my children and be at the birth. But something took over her and things turned bad for both of us, riddling me with years of anxiety and depression on top of even more years of anxiety and depression etc.
On the night my baby was being born, I was sofa-surfing and staying in a recording studio, sleeping on sofas and floors because I was made homeless and hopeless by her control.
I didn't even know my baby was being born, nobody even told me it was happening.
That night: I could not sleep, the wind was blasting hard at the windows, rattling the lampposts in the street like well cooked asparagus. The rain of heavy duty size droplets that battered the glass and forced entry dripping through the ceiling, then the extreme roar of the fierce wind perfectly replicated and reciprocated my emotions and anger - casting a heavy set of salty drunken tears and loud wails of painful fear. My mind tells me - My lost love and unborn baby are trying to tell me something and it's through the strong elemental forces. Now my song make sense! My heart beating like a mouse under chase… then I start vibrating and going fizzy and numb all over my body and face with the adrenalin rush. I was dizzy, breathless, sobbing and wailing with confusion… then all of a sudden the elements and forces calmed down and ceased, to my amazement...
I puked and purged my guts everywhere, I could not sleep, I was tripping from all the crazy thoughts and feelings I was experiencing lying on this recording studio floor with nothing but my clothes for warmth, some weed, and not knowing what the fuck is happening to me!?
I can't believe I did not know my baby was being born, I did not know what I experiencing, I had no clue. I thought I was going through some transcendental change process or some demon had cast a spell on me and riddled me to curse and illness. It was insane, almost an out of body experience, probably similar to what my baby would be experiencing as she was being born I imagine! How did I feel this? Why was it so strong and powerful? It was like something from a movie or spiritual book of mystical happenings and unexplained entities. I was blown away, and exhausted.
The next day my mum calls me and said "Danny, you're a daddy!" She was excited (not knowing what stress I had been through). I was literally speechless and just started crying until I could muster a few scatty words, the girl I was seeing was more excited than me and started telling people before I could, which I found difficult to swallow, but all I wanted was my baby, and my one love to love me again.
Through it all I was treated unfairly and punished alone, broken, and beaten upon, but I remained with my hope that a family should stick together if there is a chance or even a little glimmer of hope
So I stuck with it year after year, until we bettered ourselves, even though she hated me at times, and I hated her at times, we worked at it eventually and found out about many things that got in our way over the years.
Once we removed these things, we got over it, learned to work together when we can, and now after 10 years this month and this year, we will have known each other for this long.
We now have our 3 children and lovely dog under one roof and wouldn't have it any other way :) 🙏
This is - "Float Down/Got To Be"
Original Song - by @danaidhbee
{ Lyrics } 👇🏼
"So won't you float down the stream,
When I said it's got to be
Some kind of love.
So won't you Float down the stream,
When I said, "it's got to be",
Oh well, it's got to be,
Some kind of love,
From high up above,
Oh then I'll see you, ill see you, I'll see you in my dreams,
When we float down, float down, float down the stream,
I said don't break the seam,
If you know what I mean."
Many thanks for stopping by. Never give up hope if there is a chance it will aid your happiness and love! 🙏
I wish you a lovely day.