Hello friends…
Oh my god, i am so excited writing this. I’ve stopped writing and put all of my energy and mind towards my pregnancy journey. I was so lonely, i’ ve missed writing as i think of writing is a part of me. But, i dont have any energy to do anything else other than rest and survive. My pregnancy was a hard one, but i will save the talk it for another time. In this post, i just want to say hi to everyone, i just want to write again like i used to be. I might face a lot of challenge to be consistent in my writing, but i’ve decided that i will push through.
This is my sweet and funny little angel, just look at his funny face here lol. His name is Buntala. He was born in the end of July so he will be 6 months old soon. He’s born 3,3 kg and 48 cm baby, not too big nor too tall. His zodiac is leo, so i am expecting a fiery and passionate personality of this little angel here. Oh, he’s also born in the year of dragon, apparently i am a mother of dragon now 🤣
I used to not care a lot about children, i dont have a lot of interest about baby. I dont even think that i really want one. But, the moment i laid my eyes on this little one, i know that there’s nothing i love more in this world than him. Like i said, i went through such a hard pregnancy. So, i am very thankful that this little one can be so strong to survive in my womb. The fact that he’s born healthy without any physical disabilities is a miracle to me. He’s almost 6 months now and yet, i still feel like i am not deserving him. He’s too good to me. But, since God give me the chance to be his mother, i will always do my best to love, protect, and take care of him.
My life right now is still hectic. I am still trying to find the perfect balance and dynamic in my new family kife. I am still struggling. Everyday is tiring, everyday is smelly, everyday is sleepy, but i am happy more than ever everyday too. Maybe because i am his mother, i think that Buntala Is so cute. His round face is lovely. Je can do many things now. Its crazy just how fast baby can grow. I feel like i have a new version of my baby everymonth. It was fun and exciting because i feel like expecting a lot of new things from him.
I think that i am a bit awkward in this post. There’re many things that i want to write but i forgot mid sentence (i am blaming my mommy brain here) so my word and my sentences might look weird. Its been a long time that i think in english too.