My mind has been bouncing back and forth between various things lately. School, trading, finances, relationships, lawn tennis, life, the future, and so much more. I have been cycling around these things, and sometimes it gets hard to keep up with all of them. I start to have strange, intrusive thoughts like
"What is the use of all of this?"
It starts to look like nothing is going to work, and everything just feels frustrating. I have been in that position multiple times, and every time it feels like a deep hole. But every time, no matter how deep the hole feels in the moment, I somehow find my way out of it. Not because I am special or anything, but it just always happens because I refuse to give up on my dreams.
After falling in and out of rots again and again and again and again and again, it started to get easier, and I started noticing the things that keep me grounded and bring me back on track whenever I start to feel unmotivated.
The first one is my own mind. The fear of failure is said not to be a good driving force, but for me, it works. My worst fear is failing, and whenever I am thinking of giving up, my mind reminds me of the fact that the only way I can fail is if I give up. And with that, I try again once more.
The second one is telling someone that I'll do something. Whenever I tell someone I'll do something, I am more likely to do it than when I just planned to do it and never told anyone. I don't know the psychology behind it, but I guess I just don't like to disappoint people or tell lies, so when I say I'll do something, I'm always motivated to do it even in times when I don't feel like doing it anymore.
The third is listening to motivational audio. I have this one guy called Eddie Pinero, whom I've basically binge listened to all his motivational audio on Spotify. And I don't just listen to anyone, I try to find one that relates to what I am going through in the moment, and in that moment, it feels like I have gotten a newfound energy.
These things aren't special, but time and time again, they've helped pull me out of ruts. In the end, it is all in your head, and the only way to keep going is if you really want what you're moving towards. If you want it enough you won't stop when there is opposition.
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