Even though sometimes I don't want to get angry, one way or the other something or someone out of the blues will successfully make it happen. 😭 Anger is something I never want to experience but then I am only human which means going about my daily walks, getting angry is almost impossible but the good thing about it is the ability to control my anger.
The ability to control one's anger is what makes a person mature cause the state of an angry person loosed with words carrying out actions only worsen the situation there for not playing wise. Maturity like earlier said is being able to control anger and so a lot of us including myself have our various ways/ manners how we respond to anger and for me, the manner at which I respond to anger differs depending on how much I was hurt.
Sometimes I walk away but most times I am expressive. Being expressive doesn't mean am lose with my words no, not all and inorder to speak in line I give myself a minute or two staying silent before expressing myself and if it happens I had the urge not to speak at that time considering the fact I might loosen up, I just walk away till the atmosphere is clear before speaking to the person who hurt me.
There was this certain day I woke up feeling so energized and happy and just before the day would end, something happened that eventually made me bitter and angry and it happened that I trusted something valuable with someone I think I can trust but that was just me thinking not knowing reversed would be the case. Two weeks before when I would be needing it I already informed her to get it ready for me but she replied I should relax my mind of which I was so relaxed because this person I trusted her so well.
I noticed two days later it was like she was playing a hide and seek game with me but it never bothered me and I was still at rest. The day finally came for me to get my stuff back and it was a different story entirely that too she wasn't remorseful about it to add to it she was so loose with words which eventually triggered me to get angry. After a minute or two I expressed how I felt and then walked away without turning back.
Writing what transpired that day now isn't even justifying it at all cause it was an emotion of both anger, bitterness and trust broken but how I handled it I believe was the reason that made her and her mother come to my house the following day to come apologize. Well to heir you is human and forgive divine so who I my not to forgive considering the fact she came with her mom because I spoke well and not otherwise. So in conclusion, my own way of responding to anger is to be expressive not because I want to but helps relieve even more anger off my shoulder.
Writing was inspired by #februaryinleo prompt day 11, silent or expressive when angry?
Thank you for your time, peace 🕊️