So I’ve been thinking about my life lately but I’m not sure where this post fits in. Is it a reflection, rant, or a thoughtful post? Well, we’ll find out as this post progresses but pardon me for posting it here.
I can’t help but wonder how I moved from enjoying being around people to enjoying my own company, always staying indoors, and being a complete loner.
I am not an introvert, I have a handful of friends and my social battery can go above 100% sometimes but all of a sudden I don’t feel like going anywhere or being in the company of others.
Does it come with age? Or am I going through something that I don’t know about? Or is this something anyone can relate to?
I’ve been on leave for a few weeks now, before my leave, I had the perfect plan. To travel, visit amazing places, hang out with friends, and basically have fun but for weeks now I haven’t stepped out of this house to do anything reasonable except I need to get food or groceries! And I always go out in the night. (Vampire vibes)
What I find disturbing is that this didn’t start now. It’s been going on for months. I would rather be all alone than be around people.
The same goes for my phone. I don’t want to be texted or called, I just want to be left alone. Is this supposed to be normal or am I going crazy?😂😂 somebody please send help!!
The fact that I don’t get bored being alone is worrisome too! How can I be so good at entertaining myself at home?! How!
I literally have everything I need to keep me busy and entertained. There’s no dull moment here and going out seems like a chore, a very difficult chore that I am not willing to do.
Why do I want to be away from everyone and why am I so comfortable being alone? Mind you, if this was how I have always been I wouldn’t be so bothered but moving from a bubbly human being to a complete loner in a matter of months is like moving from 0-100 in a minute!!!
I’m currently considering working remotely and if I am able to achieve this, this would be the end of mingling or having contact with humans, hehehehe just kidding😂😂 but it’s possible. My job is the one thing that takes me out, remove that from the equation and it’s GAME OVER!
Please, is there a remedy or hack to this? Because my social life is currently crying for help, so before it dies completely, please help me.
I mean, I’m such a sweet and awesome girl, the world needs some of my awesomeness, but that can’t happen if I’m all stuck in this little apartment of mine!! Helpppp!!!
PS: With this many exclamation marks, this post turned out to be a rant after all😂
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