Hello! 👋
Guys, I used to think that I was very meek without any atom of pride, but that was a big lie because there's an aspect of my life where pride has built a big mansion. The funny thing is, I have known that it's not helping my life, but trust pride na, the pride is always priding. Lol.
The pride works in a way that I find it very hard to beg for help, beg for forgiveness when I'm not wrong—as it's encouraged that we should always swallow pride and make peace—and majorly, to beg clients to come back. I mean clients that stopped patronising me.
Let me take them one after the other to tell you how prideful and entertaining the habit is.
Begging for help:
You know, we are always encouraged to seek help whenever we are in need. I seek help, but I have limits. Let me use my Hive contact list as an example—I have people that always come through for me whenever I'm in need of urgent 2k. Unashamedly, @fashtioluwa and @beeeee(yes, a lady, I don't have shame) are at the top, and there are others too. But whenever these ones are not around, I would prefer to die than to reach out to another person for help. It's not like I don't have people, I do, I have a lot of them, but hey, pride will not allow me.
When it comes to other bigger needs, pride will not allow me to open up. I will be kept on a spot until I sort myself out.
Begging for forgiveness when I'm not wrong:
You see this act, a lot of friends have discarded me and honestly, I no send. Lol 😅. Why should I be the one always wanting to make peace to keep a friendship even when I didn't do anything wrong? Anytime I see myself in this situation whereby someone is waiting for me to make peace—meanwhile they're the one that's wrong—I raise my shoulder very high. It's so interesting and entertaining to have this feeling.
Begging prodigal clients to come back:
Omo! Once a client walks away and stops patronising me and I'm sure I didn't do anything wrong, I will only make sure to find out the reason why the client decided to walk away. And instead of me to act on it, I will lock up. Nah! I have pride, you can’t see me go and be begging anyone.
The bad side of it:
In all these, we are humans and we need humans around—either for anything, be it for help, support, or anything.
Like I mentioned, a lot of friends have discarded me because we were not willing to boldly come together and click the vibe again. It's possible that a good connection could come from the friends that have discarded me.
The same thing goes for the clients that walked away and I am not willing to beg them to return. What if they hold the connection I want to HIT a big jackpot?
I will do away with this habit, but not this year—maybe from next year.
Thanks for reading.
This is my entry to Hive Naija prompt of the week.
Photo used is mine