I can say that my childhood days were exciting, memorable, and fun, but yet there were many things I wish I did or had as a kid. I could call them unmet desires, which remained unfulfilled due to the situations surrounding my upbringing and of course beyond my control.
Despite that, I still cherish those days as a kid where I wasn't saddled with numerous responsibilities. Those days that almost nothing bothered me. Those days that I don't have to feel overwhelmed with many things that adulthood subjects me to. But then, growth happens, and unfortunately, it can't be stopped, and that's why I am here today as an adult to reflect on my days as a kid on the things I wish I had or did as a kid but couldn't, and how it influences my life as an adult.
One of those things I wish I had as a kid, but I didn't have it to experience the fun of it in my house was TV. Yeah, you heard me right. Imagine not being able to have movie fun, which accompanies story telling. Here on Hive, I do skip any prompt that has to do with movie experience as a child, like cartoons and the rest, because I have no story to tell about them. The basic thing as watching movies as a child was a hassle. My parents didn't have a TV, nor did they have enough resources to buy those kids game stuff that children used to play and be happy. What I normally did those days as a kid with my twin brother was visit our neighbor and watch movies with other kids over there. I can vividly remember how the parents of these kids treated us like we carry plague.
Each time we visit their home to watch movies, they will instruct us to sit on the floor that our clothes aren't worthy of touching their couches. I remember feeling bad those days with those statements, even as a kid I was. If only my parents could afford a TV, I wouldn't have anyone trouble my emotions. Despite the humiliation, we still go the next time to watch, especially during holidays, because it's just fun. It came to a point that the parents of these kids stopped us from coming inside their living room to even sit on the floor to watch the movies; they made us stand outside and be peeping through the window. We could be peeping and sweating from the tiredness that comes with standing up for a long time, yet we never saw the need to stop hunting for movies to watch. Blame the kid mindset in me then, lolz. But then, my parents stopped us when they noticed the way we were being treated. Sat us down and encouraged us to accept our family financial situation and pray for them to have what it takes to give us a good life like other kids, rather than allowing people to humiliate us. Overall, the many fun activities children usually experience, I didn't except for the local games we do play at the village square.
I also watched some of my kids friends go on vacation with their parents once in a while. I watched some of them switch from a public school to a private school, and before I knew it, they were enrolled in extracurricular activities that involved acquiring skills. I wished for all that, but sadly, my parents financial capacity prevented me from doing all of that as a kid.
Now that I am an adult, those experiences have been shaping my life for good. The heart desire of every parent is to see their children live a better life than they couldn't live. This has become my driving force to keep working hard day and night in order to upgrade the lives of my kids. Sometimes, I tell my children how they are in paradise because I didn't experience 1/10 of what they are experiencing today. I remember my second son laughing and asking if my mom couldn't even afford a TV. Lol, it's nice that at least the little experience they are having now under my watch makes me happy and fulfilled a bit. Those travels and vacations are still work in progress. I believe it will give the child exceptional knowledge as they continue to grow and mingle with others in their society.
In conclusion, my childhood wishes and desires may have been limited due to circumstances, but the experience has also made me to become a hardworking adult as I continue to strive in fulfilling the goal of my adult life and that of my children.
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