If I'm to ask myself five questions, I would love to ask the questions that people do ask me or let me say people's assumptions about me. I'm not a social type, and I love being alone, just enjoying my space with peace of mind, but I wonder why people take this as pride.
I have encountered different people in life who take my being quiet, or, let me say, being introverted, as being proud. Whereas to me, it's nothing like that; it's just me being myself. I don't believe in pretending to gain love or sympathy; I believe that being yourself is a great key to success.
For my first question, I would like to ask myself, "Am I proud?". This question always makes me laugh because I do receive this comment lots of times, and I can't bring myself to explain to everyone all the time that I'm not. I just love respecting myself to avoid being in trouble. Well, the answer to this question is, "I'm not; I just love my space; it's not pride.
There is a scenario that happened tonight that got me laughing because I couldn't believe someone thought that about me. A family friend was telling me this night that I'm wicked just because I don't carry a smiley face all the time like my kid sister does.
In her words, she said my kid sister does smile all the time, unlike me, who goes about with a frowning face. Well, that's something I didn't see as a big deal; you can't expect me to be smiling when nothing is amusing to me. If there is something I should smile about, of course, I would smile, but that doesn't mean I'm wicked.
The second question I would love to ask myself is, "Am I wicked?". It's hilarious that she thought that about me, but the answer to this question is that I'm not wicked. I just don't smile unnecessarily, and I don't see that as a crime.
Life does throw different shades at us; it is left to us as humans to fight it and be victorious. Though it might be difficult to overcome these challenges, that is part of what makes life fun. Another question I would love to ask myself is, "Why do I find it difficult to trust?". I will say the answer to this question is that life has taught me some things and experiences; they say it's a great teacher. I have been betrayed by my trusted ally on many occasions, healing from the pains and moving on, but it got to a point where I couldn't take it anymore. I just had to take some steps back on trusting certain individuals.
The fourth question I would love to ask myself is, "What is my biggest goal in life?". This question has different answers. The answer to this question is to become a better version of myself, an independent woman who has achieved all her set goals. Living a peaceful life in sound health and wealth.
The fifth question I would love to ask myself is, "Why am I working so hard?". This is a question I ask myself several times because, after working so hard sometimes and pushing myself out of my comfort zone, I wonder why I work so much. I love my family, and I can do anything for them; seeing them smile and laugh is the best thing for me; therefore, I give their happiness high priority.
As the first child in the family, I always see myself as carrying lots of responsibilities. When my younger ones demanded things and I couldn't provide for them, it hurt me a lot. I know I can't be there for them all the time, but I want to make a positive impact on their lives. The answer to this question is that I don't ever want to be a liability to myself or my family, and I always want to be there for my family whenever they need me.
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