We are all born with our different uniqueness and that's what makes us human. But then, who we are also told much about us, that is to say, how we talk, behave, and interact with people around us. Sometimes, I pity those who were raised in a broken home and the kind of upbringing they had while growing up, which contributed to whom they became in life. In the journey of life, some got helped and were able to see life from a good perspective whereas some don't get such an opportunity.
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If I should change any trait or attitude of mine, it would be my kind heart. It might sound ridiculous, but I wish to change it. I wish I could see someone in pain and just ignore or pretend I never noticed. I wish I could turn down any and every request for help or assistance even when I have all it takes to help. While I was growing up, I was privileged to live with my two grandmothers that's paternal and maternal and one thing I can say they have in common is kindness. Sometimes, I do wonder about the part of heaven they came from.
My grandmothers can remove their eyes for another person to use. That's sarcasm anyway, but that's how nice and kind they are. I learned from them that it pays to be kind, and the heart of kindness towards someone doesn't make one weak, and if the reward is not instant, the unborn generation will partake of it when the time is right. They believe that whatever good deeds or a hand of kindness they are extending to people now will be a platform or stepping stone for their children and future generations. Living with both of them impacted my life positively and it contributed to my kind heart. I just can't bear to see someone in pain, I always try to solve people's problems even when I know it's impossible. Going out of my way to put a smile on someone's face, but then, in the end, humans will be human.
Then I have parents who inherited this kind heart from their parents; my dad and my mom are people who are just too much when it comes to rendering help and being kind. A scenario occurred a few months ago, and I wished I had never taken after their kind hearts, although some had occurred before that time whereby I would be kind to someone, and such h a person would see it as a weakness and take advantage of it and become an ungrateful person but then I can't undo the kind heart. A few months ago, my parents rendered help to someone by giving her a certain amount of money for her fibroid operation, and then after the operation,n, she was manipulated by someone, me, and she decided to pay my parents back with something so disgusting, saying different kinds of unpleasant things about them.
This lady in question paid them back in an ungrateful way but then that didn't stop my parents from being kind. I wish I didn't take after their kind hearts; some humans aren't worth sacrificing for; even if you die for them, they will tell you you didn't die well, then what's the use of being kind? If I'm to let go of any trait or behavior, it will be this kindness or kind heart of mine.
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