You know, sometimes life hands you a funny “what if”that keeps you awake at night.
I woke up today imagining what it would feel like to open my eyes and find myself 10 years younger. The same old me on the inside—same memories, same mistakes, same lessons—but in that younger body, back where it all began. Honestly, it shook me a bit. The first thing I thought about was my younger self’s energy. I’d probably feel lighter, more flexible, and maybe less tired. But that excitement would come with the weight of knowing what’s ahead. The heartbreaks I thought would break me forever. The friendships that quietly fall away out of my life, not because we argued or anything, but because time, distance, and life simply got in the way.
And all those chances I didn’t take… mostly because I was scared, doubting myself, or too focused on keeping everyone else happy while forgetting about me. And now I wonder… if I could go back 10 years, would I really change anything? I want to say yes. I want to say I’d be braver. That I’d take risks I was too cautious to take the first time. That I’d hug my loved ones tighter, say “I love you” more, and worry less about what people thought of me. I think I’d spend more time on what really matters, less time stuck on my phone, less time overthinking every little thing, and more time actually living.But then I stop and really think… would changing anything actually make things better? Or would I just end up with new regrets? Honestly, I wouldn’t be who I am today without all those mistakes, all those times I got scared or hesitated. And maybe that’s okay. The quiet nights crying over failure. The small wins I didn’t even notice at the time. The lessons that only pain could teach.
If I erase or rewrite too much, do I risk losing this version of myself that I’ve finally started to be proud of? It’s a tricky thing—this idea of a second chance. Because yes, I’d want to fix the moments where I let fear win. I’d want to tell my younger self that things work out, even when it feels like they won’t. That being different isn’t something to hide. That no one really has it all figured out, no matter how perfect their life looks on the outside. I think about the people I’ve lost. The ones I didn’t get to say goodbye to properly. If I went back, would I hold onto them tighter? Would I recognize the last time we’d laugh together? Maybe. But maybe that’s the heartbreak of life—that we never know what the “last” looks like until it’s already behind us. And as much as I wish I could go back and do certain things better, I also realize how heavy it would be to walk through old memories with new eyes.
To see myself making choices I know will lead to hurt and wonder if I should intervene. To relive moments of joy, knowing how fleeting they are. It would be beautiful, and it would be painful. In the end, maybe I wouldn’t change much at all. Maybe I’d just try to be softer—with myself, with the people around me. Honestly, I think I’d stop stressing so much. I’d laugh more, enjoy the little moments, and just try to be really there. Because if this whole idea of getting a second chance has taught me anything, it’s that what truly matters isn’t fixing what’s behind me. It’s taking what I’ve learned and using it to live now, and whatever comes next, with a braver heart.What about you? If you opened your eyes tomorrow and found yourself 10 years younger, with all the lessons you’ve gathered along the way—what would you do? Would you try to change everything, or would you hold on to your story, imperfections and all?
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