Hello friends today I want to participate in the initiative of the @hive-naija community, which weekly brings us interesting topics to develop, in the format of two questions and you can choose the one you want.
The first question is about remembering a moment from the past that you would like to relive and as much as I tried to remember positive things, only painful moments came to me, which have not been many but apparently they have marked me enough to overshadow or hide the beautiful moments I have lived because I could not remember any nice moment that I wanted to tell you so I decided to move on to the second question.
In the second one they invite us to draw anything we would do in the world and that could become a reality, at that moment I thought of my parents and I would like to draw them as children where their parents (my grandparents) show them expressions of love, protection and affection. My parents lived a very sad childhood, they were abused by their own parents and they grew up feeling that lack of love that to this day is still present.
My grandparents who have already passed away had a very strong character and committed things that hurt my parents, they mistreated them, and I am not referring to the correction that a parent can give a child to learn to behave properly, no, the abuse that my parents lived was mostly psychological and also physical, To give an example I can say that my father, still being a teenager, when he heard my grandfather's call he was so afraid of him that he would urinate on himself and in the case of my mother, although she had many siblings, it was with her that my grandfather showed contempt and also did things that no parent should do with a child, such as forcing her to steal.
For many years I felt resentment, anger and hatred towards my grandparents, for what they had done to my parents but after I grew up I stopped judging them and understood that they were not perfect and also made mistakes that I did not know how their childhood was and the traumas they themselves had, also my parents do not feel any bad feelings for the memory of their parents only that they still feel feelings of sadness and pain.
So I would like to draw them a father they didn't have so they would grow up being happier and not have that emptiness, it would be a drawing where my paternal grandfather took my dad to the circus and my maternal grandfather took my mom to study and talked to her with affection and respect.
The drawings would show both of them having parents as they themselves were with me loving, patient, self-sacrificing, that would be wonderful and would fill me with much happiness if this could come true. 🥲
