Whenever there is a new prompt in the scfi community, I am always excited to participate because it will be another avenue for me to express what I know and what I have passed through. The moment I actually saw this week prompt titled "Science of self review" I already knew that it will be a great advantage for me to express my own journey about this life. You will agree with me that it is not every time you will see the opportunity to actually share your experience and your future goals.
Growing up, I have a lot of dream to actually become a whole lot of things in life. But among all the ambitions I have, one major out of it was the fact that I wanted to become a writer. Growing up, I just love anything about storytelling, storybooks and generally everything that involves writing. I can still remember writing some shorts stories even when I was still long. But just as life offer to us what we did not expect, my dream begins to shift due to a lot of factors.
Looking back to my life, I have pursued another path entirely which I thought will not be. Now I have made some life decisions that didn't even end up in the path of storyteller as the initial dream I had. I am a graduate of civil and environmental engineering. Well looking back, I discovered some of the decisions I made in my life where not necessarily influence by myself but influenced by others.
And if you will ask me, well I have a bit of regrets because I actually believe there are some positive decisions I should have made but I was influenced otherwise. Well sometimes it comes with curiosity for me. Sometimes I ask myself, what about I have taken the other decision, will it still end positively or negatively. What if I have made the decisions of my life by myself without not allowing anyone to influence me whether positively or negatively.
I looked back to my life and some of the goals I actually set and some goals I was able to achieve at the end of the day, well if you will actually ask me. I was able to achieve some of the goals but I really wish I was able to achieve more goals I set if only I was able to be more disciplined and I was able to overcome the urge of procastination. Actually looking back, one of the things that I really wish I should have overcome early in my life, I will say it is the continuous act of procastination. The act of procastination I had actually prevented me from achieving some certain goals in life.
Looking back now and what I am currently facing, I will say one of the major things I am really facing right now is the fear of unknown, the fact that I did not know what life has to offer tomorrow or in the future. To a very great extent it scares me. Even though I have actually heard about the fact that we should not worry about tomorrow, I will still say it keeps me bothered because I didn't know whether I will turn out to be a better version of myself in the future or I will turn out to be the worst version of myself. Nevertheless, I am still optimistic that the future is bright. Well that is my journey for now but I believe in years to come, it will be filled with more positivity. I am certainly sure of that.