There is this thing my friend always says—and that is: we win regardless.
Image is a picture of my best friend from my phone
Honestly, there is just no reasonable logic behind it all.
Sometimes I wonder, is it all necessary? Must we all suffer this much before things begin to pan out?
You being a journey where everything seems like its beginning to work out and boom! It all disappears in a flash. You wonder where all the good old days went to. And then you wish everyday could just go back to those days.
Every day, it's a cycle.
You wake up, say your prayers (most times you don't), dress up, and step out to see the whole world running helter-skelter, trying to meet up with different engagements that would put food on the table. And you're wondering, when does this whole thing end?
Like, is this really worth it?
You go to an office and you're met with an angry boss, who maybe just got into an argument with his wife, and next thing, he's transferring all that aggression to an innocent staff member. Like, what the heck?!
But when I try to look at it from the brighter side, I'm motivated by the fact that I’m gaining hands-on experience, and I'm gaining knowledge.
The money is not necessarily my drive.
What motivates me is my ability to stand up for myself when I’ve gathered enough experience and knowledge, just so I can withstand any challenge life throws at me.
I am also motivated by the fact that I would have what to tell my kids someday when they face challenges.
I remember my time at the university.
Each lecturer took turns frustrating you, and you're constantly asking yourself if it's a competition.
“Madam, you won’t pass my course o,” one told me one time because I failed to buy his textbook.
It’s either you’re struggling to complete one assignment or trying to understand a topic in some very unnecessary course, while also wondering, “what am I going to eat tonight?””
And when I vent to my friend, she would smile and say,
“We win regardless, dear.”
If I’m going to be honest, there were times I fell into deep depression from the immense pressure.
Oh, I was trying to make my parents proud with my results, and at the same time, struggling to keep up with schoolwork.
It’s a constant struggle for approval, both from my folks and from myself.
Funny how you'd think that because you've encountered such challenges, you'd be able to overcome future ones.
But then what if something far greater comes? What are you going to do?
Recently at work, my boss gave an order regarding my job position. And every day, I’m scared my job is at risk because I’ve not been able to do his bidding.
Funny how I shouldn’t be scared, yeah? But it’s inevitable.
You’re worried you may become jobless all of a sudden; and it’s all because you’re trying to be sentimental and at the same time trying not to hurt someone else.
It’s a constant struggle for survival.
But like I said earlier in this post: WE WIN REGARDLESS!
