While growing up, firstly I wanted to become a doctor, as at then, I didn't even know what it means or needed to become one, but each time I say it, I see the way my parents and older people around smile and light up.
They are always happy, saying thats good, you will be able to take care of your parent and everyone, I would just nod in agreement too, and go in to care and treat my teddy bear, wrap it up and pat it to sleep.
Sometimes later, I wanted to be a newscaster, I’d stand in front of the mirror, holding a stick as if it were a microphone, I would just try to say few lines and clap for myself. Some other time, I wanted to become a lawyer, I loved the way they dress and all, what I can say has been so present in my life all through was writing, while dreaming to be all of those I still write, I can't just stop it, I keep big books, higher educations and all, I have a lot of stories already written, writing seems so convenient for me, I think that was why my bro introduced me to this wonderful platform.
So, back to what I was saying, it got to a time, I was aging and my dreams began to sound like a luxury. I didn’t wake up one morning and say I won’t be a doctor anymore or that am not interested in being a lawyer anymore, no, it was gradual as I began to realize and understand that dreams had a cost....finances, connections, supports and all, and these are things we couldn’t afford.
Not that I regretted it, but I ended up studying Agricultural Technology. It wasn't even a part of my dream then, I never dreamt of planting maize or raising livestock, but what was available became what was desired, that was what the system gave me, so I went for it. Its true that agriculture is very good, but we all have what we have passion for, on my own part, I had started it before I developed passion for it, when I just gained admission I do only tell myself that Agriculture is the future not because I really wanted it, but because I had to believe something so I can keep going.
There are times that I do think maybe I could have taken certain risk, I could have tried to push myself into doing one of my childhood dreams. But life, I know my parents did tried their best, during my secondary school days, I developed passion for computer science, I wanted to go for it, my dad said he's ready to support me if I should do well in my WAEC(West Africa Examination Council) and JAMB(Joint Admission And Matriculation Board) exams, both exams are one of the necessary examinations to take to gain admission into a higher institution.
I did my best, I had a B in computer on my WAEC result, and in my jamb, I had way above the cut off mark, but the system was partial, I wasn't given admission each snd everytime, I wrote JAMB four different times, all with score above 220, I had 260, 245, 222 and 223 yet I wasn't given admission. It just seems the system isn’t built for dreamers/aspirers.
My passion wouldn't pay my bills, so I had to adjust, I went for agricultural technology, also, I started helping people find themselves, I coach, motivate and all, that was how I became the very thing I once needed....a voice that says....don't give up, try again
Am not really living my childhood dream, but I can say I’m living purposefully, also, if I had the opportunity would I still chase those dreams, I think I will, but not all of them.
I won't bury them all in the past, I have evolved too, smiles, but I will draw strength from my innocent self that birthed them. And that is exactly what am doing, I may not be a doctor, or be reading the news to millions, but I'm telling my story, I am telling that of others... One that heal and inpire people. And who knows, maybe it wasn't even about becoming the title that those dream hold, maybe it was becoming someone who made the world a better place to live in, in whatever way I could, such as that which am doing on my whatsapp and here.
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