We feel love because we just feel it, no reason to explain. There are others who think we don't understand them but the truth is they're the ones who don't. The complicated fact about this is when we're in love is the ability to think clearly, we just learn how stupid we were when that love was already gone. Of course, when people give us more advice, like reality or the awakening. We understood them clearly but it's the heart that decided to ignore it.
The heart is not easy to understand, sometimes we wonder even if we stopped our thoughts from doing it but our hearts disagree. We know it's wrong, we know the results will not be good, and sometimes we know we may fall into the abyss. Yet, we still continue because a feeling of regret that came from our hearts will tell our brain. Sometimes I wonder if the heart has its own thoughts. I mean what if the human emotion doesn't come from the brain but from the heart itself.
If we noticed, perhaps all of us experienced the feeling of pain. It's not true that we feel pain in our heart or like hurting but an uneasy feeling that makes our heart feels heavy. It's hard to define why we keep feeling the pain even though our brain desired no to feel the pain anymore. People may never stop insisting that the brain should be superior in terms of thinking and just the heart will follow. It's easy like saying sorry to someone even though we don't mean it because the brain can understand the pain and it has no idea how it feels.
No exact words to explain that the heart should stop feeling the pain. I don't know if it happens to most of us but the time we used our brain to rule over everything and let the pain be forgotten. The heart opposed it even though we already avoided feeling that way. That's why sometimes the brain just gives up and lets the heart take over the pain. It's the reason why we don't resist anymore and just let the pain hurt us over and over again. We are not hoping to heal right away, time will come that the pain will no longer be a nuisance and it's like part of us. In other words, we eventually feel numb and accept that there is pain and there's nothing we can do about it.
It's better not to contradict the emotions you're feeling inside. It's not easy because it's like suffocating us but we must let it flow like a river. There's always an end, we don't know when and how, it will just be. The best thing to do is not to rush it and keep feeling it until we realize it's like it doesn't exist. The brain can't control the heart but it can't trick by thinking things to be busy. It will appear once in a while but it will not stay longer when there are things we must do.
It's part of the art because we have no idea why it happens. It's just that and be like that, continue living until we can finally explain what type of art is this. Just go on, keep on living because in this world nothing remains forever, including that pain of course. Don't be hard on yourself and understand that this happens because of reasons. We never know, we might be thankful we experienced it for us to be happier later. We can't predict things but we can do something for a future we are hoping to be.
Thank you for reading
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ABOUT ME
Paul Ladrica is the name but prefers to be called mrnightmare that feels like living in the dream. A country boy and a dreamboy (dreamer) who likes to stay in a small village even though it means abandoning the future to become a seaman. The passion is writing but not sailing in the vague ocean. Don't wonder if the face will not be shown, this is better where the words can flow smoothly.