Today I did download a movie which I watched, I tried to enjoy it but now it is really something that I am not enjoying anymore. The magic had been lost, it just means that I am now old for movies or maybe it is just me.
I remember when I was younger when movie are in cassette tapes and are rented. The rent was quite hefty for a boy that could not afford it in the first place and had no video cassette player to play it into as well.
When I was younger my father had brought home what we call the "Betamax" and from that I can recall watching Rambo, Tom and Jerry, and a few other movies for a while because my father sold it before he went to abroad again to work.
So after that we never had any video player until 1998 when my father brought home a VHS player. At that time there were still video rental shops and fortunately my brother had a job at that time so he was the one renting those heavy VHS cassette tapes for us to watch with my siblings, I can't even recall my parents watching movies with us. It is either me and my brothers or with my sister and never really with us all watching the movies that my brother rented.
Then came the transition to video CDs and by the time that DVDs are available the popularity of rental shops had dwindled until I saw them closing shop because no one is renting anymore because of the Internet. The people can just download movies in top of the line quality.
But lately I've not been able to watch movies, not that I do not have access to it but because I have gone bored watching movies now unlike when I was younger that a sight of a movie cassette just excites me. Now that the excitement is gone because I feel that I had grown old already.
So it just sucked being like this, I just want to be younger again. I wanted to re-experience the bliss of believing that the thing in the movie had really happened or at least somebody's blood had really gushed out or a feet or head had been blown off.
But now when you watch a movie you will already know that it was "just a movie" and that it never really happened, or it is just a computer-generated graphics. So you will just try to finish on watching it so that you can go about to attend your other activities. That is what I am experiencing right now and it is no fun at all already, and yes if only could turn back time I would have done it. But I know at least in heaven there is a different joy that we could experience there and not like this where it just fades away and will never come back.