You know that scenario when you are going out on a date with a fine guy and you can't think of what to wear? Yes. I was in that predicament a few hours ago. If you remember vividly well I told you about this handsome young man I met whom I couldn't bring myself to tell him I stay on my own. We went out on a date today.
It was a lovely one. He treated me like a Queen, damnit!. He kept asking if I wasn't satisfied with this or that so he could have it changed... hahaha...dude, it's okay, I am fine...I screamed in my head.
I tried to get to know him better. What makes him tick. What he likes. His fears, his passion, his family, his beliefs, why he does the things he does the way he does them. Everything was centered on him. I made him talk about himself more. I don't remember if I said a lot about myself.
Then he mentioned I was mysterious, I smiled because I knew I still harbor the truth that you guys said I should spill. I was prepared to tell but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I didn't seem to get the right opportunity to do so. Now, I am afraid, what happens when he finds out? We got back early because he thought mum would be mad, this is the part where I should have let it out, but, my throat was stuck and my tongue refused to wag.
I left it. Maybe it's not the right time. I hope I get the right opportunity to let the cat out of the bag. I can't imagine his face right now. I know the moment I let it out a lot will change. What I don't know is if it will be on a negative or positive note. This is something I can't tell. We'll see.
We visited a fast food called Yesmin Meals Limited. I have always wanted to visit this place I never found the time or the occasion. Today, I finally did. This was the first time for both of us. He felt awkward but I helped lighten his mood. He isn't someone who likes eating in the public therefore fast food and eateries is off-limits to him. I told him it was okay as long as he has me.
I remember there was a time I was like that. Then I met my ICT teacher and he changed my mentality. He always sends me on errands to places like this so I can learn to be comfortable about visiting them. At the same time, he wanted me to gain experience. My mentality was changed as a result of the frequent visitation and with every purchase, my confidence grew. Today, I am no more afraid to visit these places, if I am, I try to remember the new experiences I'll be getting and my confidence level builds up.
It was fun getting to know him better. And I had the perfect chance to watch his beauty from all angles. Mehn, he is handsome. I haven't met someone more beautiful than I am of the opposite sex before, so you could tell why I am obsessed with the fact that he is. While I was admiring him and swore he stole my beauty, my head said, "what if you are siblings"? What? No way, don't mess with me right now, I countered immediately....lol.
There weren't a lot of people here. I was grateful for this because I didn't want to watch his uneasiness. He ate comfortably while telling me about himself and I laughed at all the funniest parts. When we got here, the food wasn't ready, and so we had to wait for 15 minutes before we got served.
The food was unexpectedly delicious. You have to believe me I have tasted foods prepared in eateries and they don't come out nicely as the one I had today. It was surprising. I made a mental note to always get food here on days I want to treat myself or my friends. I almost thought of staying there most times to work on my phone while I buy a few drinks or water because the environment was conducive and encouraging.
All in all, it was an interesting night. Only, I couldn't voice out the truth about myself. I apologize. I'll try to find the best opportunity to let it all out. I promise.