July 4, 2023
My own photo, manipulated in PicsArtI grew up in a country with a plethora of superstitious beliefs told by old folks, and dreams are being defined. Definition of dreams that would sometimes alter my thoughts or make me worried as I got out of bed. And when I seek more realistic meaning through relevant articles online, it just makes things confusing, so I end up believing nothing.
As I mentioned to Lhes in my comment, dream interpretation can be subjective depending on whom we ask or how we view our dreams. But what I am certain of is that our dreams can have a relationship with our waking lives; even our emotions can affect our dreams. I believe when they say that we dream weird things when we are anxious. That is proven. However, I don't believe when they say someone you know would die when you dream of crossing a river or losing teeth. Who wants it to happen, anyway? Some meanings said by old folks are truly absurd, especially when compared to those written by experts. I rather not believe them.
But sometimes, we can't keep from worrying when we dream something bothersome, especially if death and family are involved.
There was one time I saw my cousin's dead body floating on the river bank in my dream. By that time, we were living in the same boarding house. The next night, he didn't go home as he attended an unexpected overnight swim with his colleagues. If that happens to you, do you think you won't be worried? It bothered me a lot the whole night. But I was relieved when I saw his body lying on his bed as I woke up in the morning. I was supposed to tell him about my dream, but I changed my mind. Who would be happy knowing you died in someone's dream, anyway? Instead, I just told him to take care and not stay overnight outside again.
Years passed by, and I was probably in Hong Kong by that time. I dreamt of my cousin, and again, he was dead in my dream. However, I have already forgotten the details of this second dream. Or perhaps my subconscious mind wanted to bury it. What the hell was that, then? Until now, I still couldn't figure out why I kept dreaming about him being dead. He is, by the way, still alive and kicking up to date, and he is my closest cousin. And up until now, I haven't told him about those dreams.
Dreams usually fade into our minds as we wake up, but I had a lot of recurring dreams that could not be forgotten up until now. I also have dreams that are connected, and I am aware of them in my dream. For instance, I've been to a certain place in my past dream, and the scene in my current dream is the same. In my dream, I am reminded of the past dream (even though it happened years ago), and I am aware that I am only dreaming, lol. Hilarious, isn't it?
Some people kept visiting me in my dream, but I was clueless about them and not familiar with their faces. All I know is that we knew each other in my dream. I dreamt of having a partner, but I easily forget his face when I wake up. D*mn. Among all the dreams that will be forgotten, why the face of my partner? Does it mean I won't have a special someone in my life forever? Lol. That is accepted, but absurd. What if I meet him in the street but am unaware that he's the man in my dream? 😅
But if there are dreams that kept coming, the first is that I kept taking an examination unprepared, and the second is the struggling to fly.
Failing an examination isn't my forte, as I don't usually go to an exam unprepared. In my dream, I was given an unexpected test, and I knew by myself that I wouldn't pass because I didn't study, which is kind of unusual, and I was aware of it in my dream. This dream made me think when I woke up, "Why do I need to take an exam? I'm not a student anymore."
And as humans, we cannot fly. However, in my dream, I know in myself that I can fly, so I would jump off the building. But instead of flying, I am struggling to fly. By then, I would expect that I would soon die. This is my dream that makes me feel exhausted upon waking up.
These dreams happened many times, which made me seek meaning online. Meanings that can be significant to my waking life and might help me understand them.
According to Dream Dictionary:
Struggling to fly means something is holding you back from advancing to the next stage in life.
Meanwhile, according to Chinese Astrology:
Taking an exam unprepared could present a test of life and being worried about it. It also indicates being worried about responsibilities and that rest is needed.
The meaning of these two is somehow realistic and relatable to my waking life situation.
I guess I mentioned in one of my posts before about my plan to work in Europe or somewhere out of Asia, as it is easier to apply here in Hong Kong. However, my responsibilities to my family are holding me back from pursuing my plans, and this often triggers my anxiety.
My friend and I recently talked about it, and she's now back in school to complete the degree requirements for applying for jobs in Europe. Her sister will go to Norway in a year, and she will follow after her studies here in Hong Kong. Meanwhile, I am stuck and uncertain if I can pursue this dream because of my responsibilities. But I don't want to lose hope. After three years, she will be done studying, and hopefully, by that time, I am already prepared for stepping up to the next stage of my life.
If there is a legacy I could leave when I'm gone, people around me know it. I was born to sacrifice for the sake of other people. I dream, not only for myself but for others. My act of kindness, not any material possession, I guess, wouldn't be forgotten and would remain as a legacy.
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