It has been about a month and 19 days since I officially moved into my new apartment and all I can say is that I am amazed at God's blessings and most importantly; I am happy.
I remember how anxious I was when I was thinking about the limited time I had to stay in the shelter. Not just that, my thoughts went as far as, how will I survive when I leave the shelter?
During my stay at the shelter, I got a job as a gym instructor. I know I have mentioned it in one of my post before. The first month I spent being staff at the gym was an amazing one. It made me feel like I was in the right place and I did not imagine myself leaving anytime soon. WHAT CHANGED?
The manager was nice and so was the CEO, and I ensured I did my work diligently. I remembered making a lot of mistakes... If you have been following my blog, you probably may remember a few mistakes I made.
Many of them were funny mistakes. I even posted in the comedy open mic community.
Check it out here 👉 What's the person's name, did you ask?
I started losing interest in being seen as a long-term staff when I realized that the rules they were bringing were not going to be beneficial for my life as a whole. That is the last thing I want for myself. One of the rules was for me to drop my phone in the CEO's office and not make use of it until 8 PM when I close, the times I was allowed to go pick up the phone was when they needed me to create an advert for the gym. Aside from the phone issue, I was already feeling stressed out. The work was just too much for only me, and I was not paid well.
Before I got the job, my phone was my source of income and it was what sustained me. It didn't feel good about abandoning all that I was doing because of a job that wasn't paying me well. I believe in having streams of income as a means to become financially independent.
I decided to endure the job for some period so that I can save up up money for the rent of an apartment. Had it been all was going well at the gym, I would have gotten an apartment close to the gym, but I did the opposite when I saw that working at the gym for a prolonged period wasn't going to help my life.
Guess what! God showed up in a way I less expected. I got the full amount I needed to rent an apartment without stress. Although I did a few things, it was a big testimony for me and was something I never thought would be real.
It started with a call I received from my counselor in early April. She told me there was an ongoing grant from the government and that I should apply for it. Things like grants from the government usually go on a voice mail, it seldom happens, and that was why I never thought it would work out at first, forward to the week before my birthday in July, after going for interviews and sessions they needed me to attend, it finally became of a reality. 95% of the amount needed to pay for the rent of the apartment was transferred to the landlady and God also used an amazing person here to bless me. I got that remaining 5% and I settled the payment for the rent.
I stopped working at the gym in the second week of July. Even though I was still trusting God to help me get another physical job, that would give me time to take care of my son and myself, I still had a lot going on in my mind.
One thing that kept my faith in God unwavering was how God had been coming through for me in the past, even at the last minute. Each time it feels like all hope is lost, something huge happens that re-energizes all that I had run low on.
These huge things that have been happening in my life make me look at myself and wonder why God loves me so much. Despite my unfaithfulness, he still did not forsake me. He never left my side. All that happened in my life a few months ago has helped me to know and understand God more. I know when he is speaking to me and I know when he is saying that I can have something and I can't have something.
This takes me to my goals for 2022, which I had written during one of the @ladiesofhive contests in December last year.
👉 The goals for 2022 LOH - #63
I wrote some goals, and one was to be decisive. I have struggled with indecisiveness for as long as I can remember and it made me so frustrated about life, but it is different now.
With the happenings in my life so far, I have learned to recognize God's voice. When it is his will for me to have what I desire or yearn for, he doesn't make it a hard task for me; I feel peace in my heart. However, when something feels difficult and is taking my peace away. I quickly understand that God is saying that it isn't time for me to have it, or it isn't for me at all.
This feeling has helped me to be decisive, and I am happy about it.
I'm not worried about getting a physical job that would take me far away from my son and leave me with no time to care of him and focus on my life as a person because God has blessed me with a remote Job. I may not have it all now, but I am content with all I have now. It feels like 80% of my wish has come true.
I will talk about a few other things subsequently in my blog. Meanwhile, I am grateful for the prompt word 'APARTMENT' by @shadowspub Shadows publishing that I received in my mail.