Turning Failures into Ways to Lead a Meaningful Life #𝟐𝟎𝟎𝐭𝐡

Life may be burdensome to some because of the endless struggles but let's not forget how those people always strive hard to do them all despite being faced with countless failures in an attempt to make them more bearable.

Facing difficulties may lead to disappointments but we humans are being created as a gift thus the challenges that we might encounter should be our aspiration to do better to gain a meaningful life.

In my understanding, a meaningful life means having my life to live to the fullest, having an awareness of my strengths and weaknesses and seeking growth within the failures that I encounter. I can still remember the feeling of failure while I was trying to apply for my dream university but did not get past, I was too nervous and devastated for I feared that maybe I wouldn't be able to pursue college just because I failed to enter my dream university.

As soon as I wasn't admitted , I felt this pain questioning my credibilities at that time, Soon enough I was comforted and encouraged by my mother to try and reapply in other universities which leads to where I'm studying now.

Leading a meaningful life is when I can confidently say to myself that I am trying or doing my best to achieve something, may it be dreams or to complete simple hurdles in life, what all that matters is that I feel satisfied and happy with what I'm doing. For instance, as I am still a student I find it meaningful when I'm trying to pour out my strength into doing projects and daily assignments, Most of the time I let my anxieties get the best out of me and push me to mess up, for my thoughts will be all over the place.

It's even more stressful that I feel pressured by those people that surround me and I end up being in circles with doubts and insecurities. Leading a meaningful life would fluctuate if one is full of negative thoughts and energy, I realize this as I grow older, I get to reflect on my actions and somehow I pay more attention to understanding my emotions, surely it was not an easy task to do change since old habits die hard.

I could only feel like I'm leading a meaningful life when I'm able to achieve something. It has always been like that and somehow it's too tiring for my well-being. As I have tried to reminisce about my early university years, I've realized how pent-up I am. I could hardly find relaxation within those years since I felt the need to achieve something minus the fact that I'll be kicked out from my course if I wasn't able to maintain acceptable grades and I didn't want to start ranting about how pressuring the third year is for me.

The old me has been hard for myself, I just deeply realized that a while ago, I mean there's nothing wrong with trying to do my best to feel satisfied with the results but then I had forgotten how to enjoy myself and cherish those hard moments and its lessons, even as I was doubting myself there are moments wherein my efforts would pay and I'd be given recognition for the things that I've achieved.

I know I've still got a lot of roads to cross, the journey may come as a bumpy one and I might stumble while paving for the future but then again I should try to always remember the reason why I want to achieve something and that would always be to lead a more meaningful life ahead of me even if failures and disappointments would block my way, I should continue to clear the road to gain a better future.

That is all for my blog, I hope that you've enjoy reading it Hivers! Have a great day ahead