I've really enjoyed going into the Akashic Records and writing about the messages I see, and though I finished my 5 messages, I thought I'd continue to do open messages once or twice a week.
Yesterday I went into the records and I thought that it was a poignant message I received.
I got quiet, meditated and then opened up the records, asking my guides for help.
I found myself crosslegged on a carpet in the records, and I just waited. It took a few minutes before I saw an elephant walk past me. I immediately got up and followed the elephant into an open forest. I grabbed its tail and hoisted myself up onto its back. I was standing on its shoulders looking ahead as it gently walked forward. It was then I realized someone was behind me on the back of the elephant. I turned to see a young man with dark hair sitting facing me on the elephant's back. I sat down facing him. I asked him who he was, he said he was an ascending master.
He snapped his fingers, and we were both undressed in an instant. He had me lay back and feel the motion of the elephant walking beneath my back. I closed my eyes and before I knew it, I felt like I was having sex. I opened my eyes, sat up and the boy had not moved. He snapped his fingers and we were dressed again. He said to me. No shame. He repeated it multiple times. He said, it's in you. Your pleasure is in you and there is no shame. he also began to connect the experience I had on the elephant's back to the dark creative womb and that there's no shame in tending to that place.
I thanked him and closed the records.
I immediately went to look up the spiritual meaning of elephants. It was such an important part of the vision, that I feel the movement of the elephant moving forward as I lay there. They symbolize strength, focused power, intuition, endurance, stability, wisdom, etc. They are a matriarchal species where the female elephants lead the herd and wisdom is passed down through the generations of the females. I also read that elephants have a phenomenal recall of memory.
This is interesting to me from both the standpoint of physical pleasure and the standpoint of the creative womb. I am currently working on both of these pieces in my life and I've been feeling that they are intimately tied together. Authentic expression is in a roundabout way a sexual act, is it not? It's vulnerable, trusting, being guided, pleasurable, connected ... I feel like the more I can understand my own sexual history and what it comes with in order to free my energy, the more I understand myself, my connection to spirituality, my body, my relationship ... and that all ties into my creative expression.
The reason I thought it was poignant as a vision, is because I know so many women who have cut off their own pleasure, who have had trauma in their pasts, who have come back to sexuality in their 40's, but it was long denied. The young man said 'No Shame'. There's no shame in sexuality, pleasure, relationship with yourself or anyone else. He said 'The pleasure is inside you.' You have to release it. I think the point was to relax into the rhythm of the elephants saunter. To relax into the elephant's matriarchal ancestral wisdom, strength, stability and intuition. To allow these to support you in both the sexual as well as creative energies in life.
I know for myself, shame was definitely a bed partner for decades. It's taken many many years to be able to even talk about it. I'm a survivor of sexual trauma and domestic violence and I was so young that it made impressions so very deep in the core of who I am. I was at the point where I didn't even own my body anymore, I figured it was under ownership of whoever I was dating at the time.
I have made huge strides and it's only in my 40's that I'm beginning to really tap into the place where sexuality and creative expression are working together, and it feels really good. No Shame. Your body is yours. Pleasure is at your own beck and call. creativity is inside you ... know yourself first.
So that's my unfiltered thoughts on the vision I had yesterday ... I really thought it was an important one and I'm sure there's much more I could say about it, but a vision is for you to interpret for yourself. What do you take away from it?
Until next time!
(the picture is a photo I took of some Lavender, over some paintings. I think the lavender has some of the same qualities of the elephant ... <3)
LOVE.
Jocelyn b.
