Everyone has something that they'd like to change about themselves. It might be a physical thing; a character trait; or anything at all. What is the ONE thing you would choose to change about yourself and why?
I'd be a hypocrite if I say I don't want to change anything about myself because honestly, I have a lot of insecurities. I know I'm really a flawed person, and if I hadn't changed I could be a rotten one by now. When I read that question a lot of things came to my mind, and it somehow reminded me of how I even wanted to change my whole self.
I admit that I'm far from being physically attractive and there are really times that I felt down because of that. Way back then I was not that conscious of my appearance, but as I grew up I realized how it can influence the way people treat you. Also, it has certain perks that I sometimes wish I could have experienced. For example, when it's Valentine's Day—the ones that get the most gifts and flowers are those physically attractive. Not that I wanted gifts, but the way people appreciate them was just kinda envious.
However, upon pondering it's not the looks that I really wanted to change, but I want it to be one of my undesirable character traits. Since I only have one thing to change, I'll probably choose to change that unfriendly trait of mine. Not that I look and act really unfriendly, but that impression—mostly first—of people on me just boils down to my inability to relate more with them. I may be perceptive and observant of other people's issues, but when it comes to mine I often overlook them. And because of those issues, I often became insensitive to the advances of those people who wanted to know me more.
As I grew up, those personal issues slowly became walls that blocked me from feeling the emotions that people around me wanted to give, and what's quite funny about my insensitivity is it's only applicable to me, however when it comes to other people I often noticed theirs. It's ironic that because I'm overly conscious of other people's social lives, I sometimes forget that I have one that I should focus on. That insensitivity contributes to my unfriendly-like trait because it's like a big sign to not approach me because I won't notice you, and even I felt that it was unpleasant and would be a bigger disadvantage later on especially now that I'm nearing the end of my academic days.
After I graduate, most probably I'm going to be a teacher (manifesting 🤞) so it became quite a must for me to somehow work on that unfriendly trait. My future students will be elementary students (because I'm in BEED), so I definitely felt the need to be more approachable than I'm now, and of 'course I can't be like that if I still have that unfriendly air. I know that it will be difficult to do so because that trait already grew old with me, but I know I had to. If not for my future career I wouldn't find the urgency to change it because I literally lived like that for almost whole years of my current existence.
However, some changes must be made for the sake of my future career, and as hard as it seems I'm gradually working on it. That's why slowly but surely I'll try to be more friendly and attentive to people around me. Because if I don't start this now, I doubt if I'll adapt to the career path I've taken. So yeah, that will be the thing that I'm changing—that undesirable character trait that's harder to alter than my unattractive face.
Well, that's all for now ladies and if you have something to say about my thoughts, feel free to share them. See you on my next thoughts sharing, and may you all have a good weekend ahead!
All of the pictures that were used were taken by yours truly, ridgette while the first picture was edited in Canva.