"Did I set a goal last year? Yes, you did! Duhhh! Really? Seems like I'm having a hard time remembering, hmmm, did I really?"
So this is me now after setting a goal last year and failing to do some of it. Feigning ignorance after failing, are we? - Haha. But seriously, I remember saying that I'd be more gentle and kind to myself starting that day, which I didn't fail to do. Same with giving more importance to my eyes, although I sometimes can't help doing the opposite of it. You know, like, still hiding under the blanket while using my phone. But wait, I didn't fail on this one completely because I still avoid doing that, err- sometimes? Lol.
But kidding aside, I still gave my eyes more rest, especially in the afternoon, by taking a short nap. Sometimes it's two hours, and the shortest, I think, is 30 minutes. But that's not all, because I also do some housework in the house, which also gives my eyes more time to rest. Especially when I visit the market and will do the cooking. Although I also use my phone in between, it is only to check something. I can still say that I successfully gave more rest to my eyes, but how about you? Oh, another things is I sleep early now.
Now, if there are those goals I successfully achieve, there are those I fail at too. And that is, doing some exercising or some stretching, and that to socialize more with others, which I really failed at, and I didn't really start doing that. These two are also important, but argh! I failed, and I can't do anything about that now.
But, I'm not sure if this is good news or what, but even though I failed to exercise, when it comes to the food I take, I limit it more, like more veggies and less rice. Although we used MSG in it, can I still consider it a good thing? Maybe still bad, no? But either way, I want to continue doing this, and with that said, I'll add that to the things I want to do starting now well, in fact, I already started way way before, so it's just a continuation.
But here are the two things I will start doing for myself. Just two, because I don't want to set and promise a lot, especially since I know that I can't do them all. Here you go:
First, I'll start decorating and organizing my room. The decorating will be first, but the organizing, I actually started this just last year and have been maintaining it till now. I failed to do that before because of laziness, but I'm a changed woman now, so I'll continue to do that. Laziness, please die! Hahaha.
As for the decorating, I really have a small, tiny space in one corner of our house. I don't even have my own door, which I find annoying sometimes because I can't even have my own privacy. When I was just a teenager, I was really mad that I didn't have a door, and Mom would often visit my room, and I would just discover that some of my pocketbooks were in wreckage because she ripped some of their pages. It's irking because I really hide them in a good place, but still, tsk. I can't complain that much, though, and will only cry, but at that time she is the law in this house. And I am too afraid to make a request.
Anyway, so many years have passed and it's still the same, but I'm used to it now. I just accepted that it's impossible to have my own room with a door, especially since they don't have one either. No door, then no problem, I just find a way to hide my room by putting a taller bag where I put some of my clothes. Because of that, my room became darker, which I really, really love. Thanks to that, even if people visit the house, they won't easily see the inside of my room.
Now, this is how boring my room is right now. If Mommy D hadn't insisted on painting the wall mint green, it'd have had a very boring look until today. I even complained that I hate the color green and I want a darker color, but then it was Mommy D's wishes that were followed. And I appreciate this color now because it looks clean and lighter. But I want to put a decoration in here. I am planning to buy a wall decoration, like those wall stickers that I saw on some vloggers.
But there's a problem, I am not that knowledgeable about it, and will it ruin the wall if I ever use it? I need to do some research first and do some planning. But I will make sure to do so this year. This is the first time that I will do this because usually it was Mommy D who always suggested decoratiomng the house. Because, as you see, for me, as long as I have room to sleep, decorations don't matter. With or without paint, I will appreciate that. But it's different now, so this time, I want to try it.
I'm open for suggestions or recommendations, guys, feel free to educate me. It's the first time that I'm not sure what design to get. If it's me, I really like dark colors, but they won't look as good as the mint green color of our wall. So let's see. I also have to ask Mom's advice about it.
Second, I'll start finding a way to burn those fats in my face and apply it to myself. If there's a particular exercise for that, then I'll do it. For sure, it's not that hard, no? Any suggestions about it, guys? I have to do some research too when it comes to this.
Is it really possible to change the shape of my face? I remember when I'm still in college, I used to have that rice shape of a face. It's kind of long, but at least it's not fatty, unlike now. That's really one of my insecurities. It makes me jealous, though, that even though some people are chubby, the shape of their faces is still pretty unlike mine. I feel like having a square-shaped face. This is also the reason why I don't take a picture at long range, I always want a selfie where it will only show my face. Because of that, I can play with the angle without showing the fat on my face.
My phone camera is in normal mode and without the beautify effect, but still, if I use it, it will look like it still has the filter on in the picture, and my face will look slim. But it's really not. From different angles, it will really show, and I really hate when I accidentally take a picture of myself where the fat on my face shows. See it, guys? Is that even a shape? Aghhh! Haha, but now I am really determined to burn this fat. What I should do next is do some research. Do I need a tool to burn it? What's the perfect exercise for that? That and this.
To be honest, I'm not that fat, but I don't know why my face has so much fat in it, and it's wide too. I'll be happy if that fat will move into my booty, aigooo.
